Andy Mineo - Honest 2 God Tyshane/DSTL 1.0.mp3 lyrics

Honest, uh, look

Honest moments
Some days I'm too afraid to create
’Cause, I'm fearful all my greatest
Ideas have gone to waste
I know that if I would
They would probably be good
But who got time for being good
When you wanna be great been super critical
Plus my heart growin' super cynical
People hang around actin’ like
They super into you
Meanwhile, all a scheme to see what
They can get from you
Prayers in these cab rides
That became a ritual, uh
I told God I wanna live for You, but
It's hard to live righteous when
It costs residual cuts
And plus, for my faith, I face ridicule, but
In light of that glory
The comments all minuscule, uh
And my wife feeling competition
With my career
But, I'm feeling competition with
Every rapper I hear
The day I stop doing this
Probably my biggest fear
But she the only one to
Be there when nobody cared
So my priorities change
Who even keeping score in this game?
The price of fame quite the chore to maintain
Record exec's they always wanna
Pour you champagne
It all stop when the record
Sale reports ain't the same
Who really love ya? Who really love
Ya? Who really love ya? Let me ask again
Who really love ya enough to hug ya?
And tell you when you actin' like a sucka
And never judge ya that's not rhetorical
Give a call to whoever that is
Say thanks for everything that they did
Life is fragile, we here for a blink
And then it end the definition of family the
Same for the friends
The loyalty thicker than the blood
That's under yo’ skin

Honest moments how often do we have ’em?
Real ones can I have one?

We goin' public with our highlights, uh
Private with our sin
Throwing up pictures at the party
But not the one throwing up at the end
Oh Lord
Honest moments, how often do we have ’em?
Even with our closest hard questions
Hope that they never ask 'em
Ironically, they feel the same
We both actin' i'm feelin’ like a joke
That's why I try to keep 'em laughin'
Crisis happen in my faith, I felt trapped and
Didn't know if God was
Just something I imagined
Meanwhile, people got questions, they askin'
Me about Jesus, but I ain't got the answer
Sway it's kinda crazy when you're
Known for your faith
You supposed to give it but
You never get grace
So show up on stage, put on that face
I'm just tryna hold on, hope
I finish my race, uh
And I just wanna hear Him say "Well done"
How I feel right now? Well, done
Ain't nobody askin' me how I'm doin'
They just like, "Ayo, where the next album?"
"Here it is", honest to God
That's all I can be
They want the old Andy, girl, don't tempt me
And as of late, I'm lookin' into therapy
Forget scarin' other rappers
Man I'm scared of me
'Cause mental health issues in my family tree
My grandmother died of Alzheimer's
Last time I see her, yo
She ain't even remember me
I gotta wonder if the same
End is meant for me, yeah
Went through depression in December 2016
The worst year I could remember
I was sittin' at the table with my wife
Started weepin' tears fallin' down my face
I ain't even know the reason
Started readin'
Learned it's my body's way of releasin'
Stress that I been carryin'
Over these seasons, uh
And in my darkest time
Friends are what I needed
But, I hadn't sown there so wasn't much
For me to really reap and
Losin' faith in things I once believed in
Even myself
I think Satan sent his illest demons
Must be doin' somethin' right
To get this opposition
Meanin' I should go the hardest
When I feel like quitin'
God, kill me if I ever start mixin'
Personal ambition and call it
A righteous mission 'Cause from a distance
Most people couldn't tell the difference
That's the thing that make me
Ashamed to say I'm Christian
God, they lyin' on your
Name on the television, uh
They Benny Hinn gettin' Benjamin's, uh
And yeah I get it, why most hate religion
'Cause division and oppression is
What Ben depicted
But two choices young man, make a decision
Throw your hands up and say "Forget it"
Or be the difference
Four minutes of sharin' how I felt
Honest with y'all 'cause now I'm
Bein' honest with myself

Honest moments how often do we have 'em?
Am I allowed to have one? (Ayy, yeah)
'Cause we go live with the highlights
We go silent with the pain
We don't tell nobody
'Cause we don't want no shame
But, if you only knew if you only knew
Everyone you scared to let down
Don't you know they're scared like, like
Like you