AngelMaker, Evan Robillard - Eternal lyrics

Plunging from zenith
Spiraling ever so downward
Oh, why do I hold on to this dismal feeling?
Descending ever so downward

I feel lost

Reaching out through the dark
Hoping for answers gone every moment in ash
The wick has burnt away

There were moments burning bright that
I hold on to tightly
Now I stay awake and gnaw
My wounds more than nightly
And I can’t see what’s illuminated
Right in front of me
With every shaky breath I
Lay awake in melancholy

I lay in my dismay
Another love now lost so pathetically
Lacking the will to push too weak to strive
To reach out for the light
I’ve traced my tracks through the sands
To find out where it all began
And if I could relive those times
I would have burned brightly

Resonating in a state of disillusion
I’m constantly reaching for validation and
Evaluation to create a conclusion
Desperation this never ending desire to know
Where I’m standing and
I’m not forgetting the moments that I have
Been feeling cast down to this abyss to be
Dismissed of all my bliss and I
To my core know that I can be more
Than this and I try to keep my soul so alive
But I dive ever so downward

Stifling the call of my heart
These shadows are draining me of my spark
Choices I’ve made now tear me apart
This mountain of mistakes I’ve
Made from the start
Has ever diminished my senses and spirit
I sew my eyes shut, for the dark I revere it
Bathed in failure
I’m so full of missing pieces

As I lay in my dismay
I now have found, I’ve lost my way
No conviction behind my every word
No restriction to habit's I’ve
Deemed so absurd i can’t feel
I don’t know what is real anymore
And to my dying core
I’m lost inside an eternal war