Arkaine, convolk - The weight inside of my chest lyrics

I'm sorry, Will
Y'know, actually, this works out
Better for me y'know
The slimmies of summer come to class
Wearin' next to nothin'
You know what I'm sayin'
Will, it's alright to be angry
Hey, why should I be mad? I'm sayin'
At least he said "goodbye" this
Time i just wish I hadn't wasted
My money buying this stupid present
I'm sorry
If if there was something that I could do
You ain't gotta do nothin'
Uncle Phil you know
Ain't like I'm still five years old
You know? Ain't like I'm gonna be
Sitting up every night
Asking my mom "when's daddy coming home"
You
Know? Who needs him? Hey, he wasn't there to
Teach me how to shoot my first basket, but
I learned it, didn't I? And I got pretty
Damn good at it, too, didn't I, uncle Phil?
Yeah, you did
Got through my first date without him
Right? I learned
How to drive, I learned how to shave
I learned how to fight without him
I had fourteen great birthdays
Without him he never even sent me a damn card
To hell with him!

Damn, writing on concrete
Give me more time, that's me
Next time you watch me
Crush like I was nothing
I love you, like you love you
But it's true, I can't warn you
Why are you everything I don't need?
But everything I feel I do
Is it my heart or just anxiety?
Swear they're looking, never finding me
I'm glad it's over now finally
I've been sad, I guess it's fine with me

You imagine they keep watching
The way you look, the way you act
I thought you make your tears into downpour
Oh they think you're different so, you head
For home what else? But still
You can't forget that you're alone

I don't know why we stopped talking
Things have changed ever since
I watched you leave
In my chest, feel my heart
It stopped beating
I'm not manic or depressive
I'm just not okay
I still don't feel things for you
All these pills
All these drugs I don't wanna do
I still think about you
Everyday that I wake
I just wanna be with you
I wanna be with you now
Can't you see that I'm making my moves now
Working hard, flex with you
Wanna make you proud
Stay with me, don't let me be your letdown
Letdown

I didn't need him then
And I don't need him now will
No, you know what, Uncle Phil? I'm
Gonna get through college without him
I'm gonna get a great job without him, I'm
Gonna marry me a beautiful honey, and
I'ma have me a whole bunch of kids
I'll be a better father than
He ever was and I sure as
Hell don't need him for that
'cause there ain't a damn thing he can ever
Teach me about how to love my kids!
How come he don't want me, man?