Black Birdie - RECALL lyrics

Apathetic to the lies, and the fights
And all the endless crying
Voices inside of my head that sounds
Like lots of people dying
Now that we’re all fine you wanna
Try to go back in time
And restart these events
Though now that we are free of
The grief and from ev’rything
You wanna go back to the make
Believe who we used to be’s
And bring back all the pain, all the trauma
All the suffering
Try to make that make sense

If you take one look at what we have now
You’ll be sure to change perspective
You want me to be all yours
And wear the prince’s crown
Doesn’t that seem too obsessive?

You want to recall these events
To try to make amends
Want to send me back to the cradle
You want to recall all the trauma
To stir back up old drama
And terror because you are so unstable

It’s like you just want me to
Suffer in pain and stay neutral
But what d’you have to gain from
It is just an early funeral
You’ve said something several times now I’m
Fed up with the lies
Because you made bruises bleed
That used to keep me up past every hour
You might control my privilege but
I control my power

You want a change, go on and do your best
Though your best is still your worst
Still I took the pain before it
Spread out to the rest
Kept telling myself "This doesn’t hurt"
But it still hurts

You want to recall the moments
Bring back the past to the present
‘Cause you refuse to see our future
You want to relive all the pain when it
Wasn’t your pain in the first place
It was mine, all mine, and that I am for sure

I think you don’t appreciate the time
It took to heal my beyond broken mind
Gave you another chance to change
Seems trusting you’s a terrible mistake
I am not some shiny little toy
I’m independent
Not your sweet ol’ little boy
You can’t force me back to infancy
No more time running from you, I can’t hide
Treat my life like a damn game
But are you not ashamed?
No more family trees, I’ve let go, now I’m me
I can be myself, I’m fucking free

I’m free to recall what I missed
Cause I overcame it
I’ve dealt with the darkness that
Took over my soul (Ooh ah)
I wanna go out and tell my story ‘bout
How I went from misery to glory
(I don’t recall, recall, recall)
When had yet to be awoken (Ah ah)
Always kept myself unspoken (Ah ah)
Now I’m no longer broken for now I’m whole
(Ah ah ah)