Guardin, Blackheartemoji - What i am lyrics

I've been faded in the basement
Contemplating all the places I've escaped
You've got to face it
I'm erasing faces from my brain
Just to replace it
Because I've got so much pain in
Here that only I've created
Man, I just don't know if
I can do this anymore
I'll shut the fucking door on
Everyone that I adore
And the only ones to watch me sore
I'm starting wars with the help
That I've been looking for
So I don't have to swim ashore
And ruin what who I've guarantor

I think I'll stop breathing
Another way just to escape all of my demons
You don't know how I'm feeling
But the pressure on my back got
Me crying for no reason
I'm a mess inside a body of a man
Implementing pain inside my brain
Is all I can do whatever you can do and
Fake the upper hand
Life is full of fuck ups and
I know just what I am
Yeah, I know just what I am

You're my sound, let me drown
I'm not calming down
I think it's over now and I
Came without a fucking crown
My throne's been thrown around and
Time's still slowing down
I'll take it as a sign to
Barricade and wreck my proper noun
It only hurts with every verse
I think I'm fucking cursed
Tell me it gets better
I'll feel worse yea that shit's rehearsed
I'm too perverse to smile so
I'm breathing in reverse
Trying to lure my lungs to burst and
Body bag me in a hearse

I think I'll stop breathing
Another way just to escape all of my demons
You don't know how I'm feeling
But the pressure on my back got
Me crying for no reason
I'm a mess inside a body of a man
Implementing pain inside my brain
Is all I can do whatever you can do and
Fake the upper hand
Life is full of fuck ups and
I know just what I am
Yeah, I know just what I am

What I am is a prodigy
I'm a full metal alchemist
Using reverse psychology
To make myself believe that I am proud of me
But I hate my fucking face in all honesty
Honestly, I don't think I'll
Make it past 26 7 grams in my grinder
Where the fuck is the spliff?
Roll a stinky because I'm
Feeling like fucking shit
Separation, anxiety is just a fucking trip
I find it funny when you
Tell me that you care
You say that you love me
But your love's not fair
Distancing yourself from the feelings
I don't bare if you wanna let me go
Better tell me when and where