BlessMyColdWorld, Daughter - Suffocation lyrics

I’m wasted, losing time
I’m a foolish, fragile spine
I want all that is not mine
And they will all agree that I’m a suffocator
I should go down quietly

But I bet I won’t
Losing all you have is never enough for me
Right? Never mind my wants don’t let
My past haunt me i honestly might
Just be better off without this
Even I can obviously fight even if
I had heart, I work hard, no time to use it
Indecisive as Dwight if what I
Write down doesn’t work
Blink twice no emotion everyone loves life
Choking, weed smoke when I hit the stair well
Hit someone’s face with a blank stare
Well it scared her
If I run away, will that make things better?
While I’m struggling to
Think contemplating on
Whether I would ever even say
Or express how I’m feeling every single day
Even when I was with Vale
Answer this: Tell me what’s worse
Not having parents at all
Or having two people that
Honestly never cared?
Never mind hip-hop this is life explain why
I’m wrong when I only did right or at least
Tried my hardest to impress y’all
Even though I failed every single night
That’s cool though because now
I know our history and y’all screwed us
So, now I’m the black sheep of our family
Which I find to be screwed up
And with that being said
I’ll never diss anyone
I just needed to vent
But how could you understand
Where I’m coming from, if you’ve never been?
(Whoa)

But I bet I won’t
Losing all you have is never enough for me
Right? Never mind my wrist don’t let
My past haunt me
This cut was the last but the deepest
I wish every one of y’all could see this
I can’t deal with thinking
I’m not good enough not giving up
Isn’t really making anymore sense
What’s pain to you?
Getting bullied was pain to me
Getting jumped was pain to me
Getting stabbed was pain to me
Losing both of my friends was pain to me
Its pain to see that my
Mom just stood there saying
You’re never going back to King
So get over it
While my dad just watched me watch
Him let it go down
He was over it, but I wasn’t
You either die a hero
Or live long enough to see
Yourself become the villain
Willing to give up yet I’m looking for trust
Yes, mom did burn me what an
Upset are you up yet?
Because I don’t hold back anymore
Lacking the love that was expected of y’all
Attacked when I was eleven years backwards
I ball that’s only for my own sake
Bet if I fall, then I might as well suffocate
I’m overheated no need for the love now
17 years that are down
The drain with the pain
Why can’t I ever really get by?
I won’t pretend I don’t try to vent
I must not descend to lows
I intend on being much better
A new star grows now
So, I have to be there when it goes down
Hill