Blue October - Chameleon Boy lyrics

I changed my color for you
I shed my coat with caution
I lack the beauty you display
See here, there are the bruises
And some were self-inflicted
And some showed up along the way
So I nod my head
I'm ready for the world to see
The secret I kept here
Inside the man you thought I'd be
Slip into coma calm
The coma where I calm myself down
Here comes excuses why I let you down

Stand by for another breakdown
Sound off the alarm
Is this the chameleon boy I
Swore I wouldn't become? Chameleon boy
Chameleon boy

So now we've come upon
The hardest thing I've ever done
It's telling you that I'm a mess
What sort of mess, I mean
Is self-destructive gasoline
The kind that strips you of your best
And while I play instead
The way that most would end up dead
You sleep alone at home
And wish that I was in our bed
With this, I'm telling you
My color changes back to blue
How do I ask you this
Will you help me through?

Stand by for another breakdown
Sound off the alarm
Is this the chameleon boy I
Swore I wouldn't become?
Stand by for another breakdown
Sound off the alarm
Is this the chameleon boy I
Swore I wouldn't become? Chameleon boy
Chameleon boy

I try to think of all the
People I looked up to
Or growing up, who would I be?
Now the twisted part
Where did all my idols end up?
They've all passed away passed away

Stand by, it's the chameleon boy
Stand by, it's the chameleon boy
Chameleon boy i'm the chameleon boy
Chameleon boy i'm the chameleon boy