Blue October - X-Amount of Words lyrics

Relapse prevent trigger intent
Now drown high strung
Say X amount of words you're solar, bipolar
Panic disorder
Seems harder and harder and harder
Still you try to control it

You mold, you mold yeah you shape to mold
Oh, you're bold, you're bold
But, your shape is bold
You're a symptom superficial
To what they call knowing you
Minus the speed
Could you imagine the phobia?

Your brain's faulty wiring
The reason for tiring
Keep treating the curse imagine the worst
Systematic, sympathetic
Quite pathetic, apologetic, paramedic
Your heart is prosthetic

A plate of quite peculiar
On a dish of my own a tablespoon of feather
Tickle me to the bone
Give me recipes for happy
With the chemicals gone
Drinking freedom from a bottle
To the tune of belong

I'm sick of shaking, never waking
From the Hell I achieved
I never knew you 'til you left me
With the crying disease
Another curing, reassuring
Way to buckle the knees
So mistreated, I repeated
Never blessing your sneeze

Now deleted and defeated
I will stand on my own
Yeah, your memory that punches me
Has broken the bone
Give me recipes for sorry
I'm admitting I'm wrong
Still, your memory that punches me
Has broken the bone