Blue October - Hate Me lyrics

(If you're sleeping, are you dreaming?
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me)

("Hi Justin, this is your mother
And it's 2: 33 on Monday afternoon
I was just calling to see how you were doing
You sounded really uptight last night
It made me a little nervous, and a l and well
It made me nervous, it sounded
Like you were nervous, too
I just wanted to make sure
You were really okay
And wanted to see if you were
Checking in on your medication
You know I love you, and take care, honey
I know you're under a lot of pressure
See ya bye bye")

I have to block out thoughts of you
So I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach
Leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to
Remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make
A porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride
A nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want
For you will you never call again?
And will you never say that you loved me
Just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space

Hate me today hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things
I didn't do for you hate me in ways
Yeah, ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally
See what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months
It’s one accomplishment that you
Helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is
The one thing I won’t touch again
In a sick way
I want to thank you for holding
My head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself
You were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on
Things like suicide and hate
You made me compliment myself when it
Was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away
That I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your
Heart to leave me behind

Hate me today hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things
I didn't do for you hate me in ways
Yeah, ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally
See what’s good for you

And with a sad heart
I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every
Mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy, I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and
I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling
"Make it go away!"
Just make her smile come back and shine
Just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can
You do this to me?"

Hate me today hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things
I didn't do for you hate me in ways
Yeah, ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally
See what’s good for you for you
For you for you

If you're sleeping, are you dreaming?
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me

Hey, Justin! Hey, Justin!
Hey, Justin! Hey, Justin!
Hey, Justin! Hey, Justin!
Hey, Justin! Hey, Justin!
Hey, Justin! Hey, Justin!
Hey, Justin! Hey, Justin!