Blue October - The End lyrics

Here alone, standing barefoot in our lawn
Worms squeezing their way through my toes
Tonight that's how it goes
I'm at your window kneeling quiet
I thought at least I'd maybe try to
Get your head right your heart right
"Let him go!"

Then through the glass I see
Your dress fall to
The floor as he embraces every inch of you
The woman I adore
I can't believe the way you're bending
Can't believe this neverending moaning
Asking him for more begging him for more
How far will I go to make it feel right?
"Come home" i have to fix this on my own
Replace my heart
Cause, I'm convinced mine broke the
Day I let us end replace my heart
I don't wanna live by coping
I'm done with hopingend

I creeped in close enough to see
The way he touched her
From her feet across her knees
Inside her sweetest spot
He please, d and please, d her
I turned around and tried to take control
But no control was capable
It was a centerfold of how less
Than low can possibly go

I squeezed the life into my brain
Like pushing knives into a vein
I've gotta get, I said I've gotta get inside
So to the back window I crawl in silent
Standing in the darkness of my living room
This used to be my home

How far will I go to make it feel right?
"Come home"
I'm moving forward to the bedroom door
Replace my heart
Cause, I'm convinced mine broke the
Day I let us end replace my heart
I don't wanna live by coping
I'm done with hopingend

I turn the doorknob with two
Fingers to be slow enough
To sneak into the room among
The corner darkness gloom
I had to see this happening
He pushed himself so deep
Inside her clapping rang
And bounced off every wooden walled room
And that's when all went silent blank
Except for the color red
As I walked calmly numbing
Paralyzed beside the bed
I said "I know I'm not allowed to
Be here i just had to see
How good your new man really fucks you
Cause you both been fucking me"

"So now I planned the last thing you
Can both do as a pair
I tie both blindfolds tight around your
Fucking eyes to blind your stare
I don't want to alarm you
But, I figured we could end this in
What seems easy quick and painless
Man, so I'll get down to business
I choose you first, there's a gun
It's at your head
So laugh at me one more time but
Keep your face inside the bed
You sit and watch me while I do this
Shit and learn from what I've said"
I cocked the pistol pulled the trigger
And all I saw was red

How far will I go to make it feel right?
"Come home" i have to fix this on my own

Then the screaming oh the screaming
It's nice to see you scared
Of such a weak and stupid husband
Who knows you never really cared
I'll leave you with a question that I
Need to hear from your head
Was all this worth it knowing you
Have just seconds left to live?

Now think about your answer
As you lay face down on the bed
I cocked the pistol pulled the trigger
And all I saw was red
I gently stroke her arm as she
Lies lifeless on her back
Then placed the barrel in my mouth
All I saw was black