BROCKHAMPTON - DEARLY DEPARTED lyrics

I pray I find you at the bottom of the hill
I  pray I make it outta Texas i  pray my A
C come back on
My mom was stuck outside her job
My sister just asked for a Lexus
Can  Jesus send me a message?
What's  the point of havin' a best friend
If you end up losin' him?
World don't view my text messages
World  don't view my text messages
Don't view my bad side
Only get on the 'Gram to show
You motherfuckers the best side
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?
Why  I hide? Huh
Fourth grade, Mary J blige all I like
I made a mill' off a lie and
A lie so I write another lie
RCA‚ that note wasn't 'bout y'all
No lies‚ it was about how me
And my brothers been traumatized
And I must keep creatin' truths and hooks to
Get up outta this hell for myself seashells

Dearly departed look what you've started
I've been so heartless i try‚ I try, I try
Why? Why?
Why? Try

Big dog, i feel like I don't got anybody
On my side no more
Highest to low‚ truth be told
It's hard to ignore, hard to endure
Where's my stamina in this life?
Make sure my family tight
More rubies on my neck and
They catch me at night
Lookin' immaculate, no one in sight
Standards are high‚ expectation is low
Wake up sweatin' at night, mind in a flight
I don't get scared no more when
I'm standin' on the mountaintop
I'm afraid of people dyin'
Rest in peace Wako, Ray, Rita
Wish you could've took me to Japan
Back ten years, holdin' my hand
Felt like a hundred grand
Wish them letters didn't fade
Love will never do the same
Out the window screamin' your name, bless it
Mama on track, my dad got my back
My sister graduated, now she racin'
Love her through the days and
Whiskey in my hand
Bloody colored trinkets wrapped
Around my wrist lookin' magnificent, man
No stoppin' me, no boggin' me down
I know myself, me and the obstacles now
I done shit on myself too much to
Not know how to move properly now
On the property now, money gets foul
Keep your wit's about you
They stretch the truth longer than the Nile
Eyes full of evil, mouth full of vile
They tracin' your smile stay alert, big dog
Only one life is offered to you
(Only one life is offered to you)

How many sides to a story can there be
When you saw it with your own eyes?
I got all my thoughts out on
Records y'all won't ever hear
Tried to give it time
Find that truth trickles down, hit's the fan
Freezes over like a dagger to the spine
When somebody that you know throws
You in the fire how do you survive?
I kicked down the door inside a home I
Didn't own just to save a friend's life
Little did I know
The one who pulled the strings
Was once on my side
I had just moved to Texas
Tried to make it right
I do not feel obliged to dismiss the truth
Because of how I feel about our time
If I knew what you would do
To someone you owe money to
You wouldn't get a dime
Watch for where you land
Sorry 'bout your plans
That was all a scam, you won't understand
Pass the weight off to your friends
And never face the truth
Because you never learned how to be a man
And it's not my fault
And it's not my problem anymore
That's just where you stand
That's just who you are
That's your cross to bear
You could talk to God
I don't wanna hear, motherfucker