BROCKHAMPTON - WHEN I BALL lyrics

My mama said I didn’t come
Into this world with tears
Instead, I welcomed her with open
Eyes and open ears became the glue to a few
Things that couldn’t be repaired
We saw our future in each other
Blending hope and fear
Some things you don’t get to decide
It’s just a fate you share
I used to try to hold the weight
That she would need to bear
Watched uncles going on vacation
For a couple years
When thеy came back they needed
Clothеs and had no souvenirs
I pick up the phone
They’re calling us from correction
But nothing is wrong
It’s filling my heart with questions
My mama is home
I’m following her expressions
A drop in her tone
Some things that she had to mention
I nodded, I listened
She had all of my attention
"When you on your own
There gonna be some directions
I need you to follow and
Never make an exception"
I nodded she held me and
Wished I would be protected

You always used to tell me
I can be anything I wanna be
But it's hard to see it's hard to be
You always used to tell me
I can be anything I wanna be
But it's hard to see
It's hard to be with you

On my sucker-free shit since I was a fetus
Pullin’ up at the doc in a Mazda 626
Bet my dad was trippin’ bad
Hit the gas like car-chase
Light blue in the back
Mama gettin' labor pains
Dropped my sister at the Bulls'
Like house was twenty-three
Sweat drippin' down my face
Like river runnin’ free
Dark morning with the fog pourin’
In and out the trees
Every movement through they eyes seem
To zoom at lightspeed
Before me, she lost one, stillborn tragedy
Grittin’ the teeth down to the root
Pain like a cavity
Holdin' hands like they glued
Radio channel on news
Valentines with a "X" up on the calendar
They knew I would be a fuckin’ baller
Like them posters on the wall
A little stain could be the beauty in it all
Amidst all the trouble
Most your luck was rubbin’ off
Stickin’ to you like moss you my Kate
You my rock forever

You always used to tell me
I can be anything I wanna be
But it's hard to see it's hard to be
You always used to tell me
I can be anything I wanna be
But it’s hard to see
It's hard to be with you

Here I go, I'm gonna spread my wings
All grown up, let go and look at me
You'll always be (You'll always be)
A part of me (A part of me)
Here I go, I'm gonna spread my wings
All grown up, let go and look at me
You'll always be (You'll always be)
A part of me (A part of me) that's why

A part of me, a part of me, a part of me
A part of me
A part of me, a part of me, a part of me
A part of me that's why