BROCKHAMPTON - THE LIGHT lyrics

I give, my mom so, mess
In the same house my dad died in, all alone
Tryin' not to be paranoid
Tryin' not as they're calling it
'Cause every headline is a reminder
That the world's fucked
So I'm just tryin' to see the light
In between the clouds
Still love that sunshine

When I look at myself, I see a broken man
Remnants of my pops
Put the Glock to his head
Nothing ever go as planned
Couldn't make amends
Forcibly pretend I don't give a damn
At a loss, aimless, six feet deep
Suffocatin', can't face it
Can't change it, ain't make it
Master plans by the Maker, I see no savior
Morbid reflection and stainless steel
Alcohol and pills
Deadly combinations left with nothin'
Else to feel
A floral haven, hope it was painless
I see you in the faces places and my making
Reflections off a broken mirror
Fragments of my fear glarin' back like
"Who's there?"
I can't stand myself, beside myself
I see you there i know you cared
Felt numb since September when
I heard the news
What I'd do to speak one last time
Think I always will be haunted
By the image of
A bloody backdrop Skull fragments
In the ceilin'
Felt your presence in the room
Heard my mother squealin'
Master of disguises, ash to ash, dust to dust
Voids behind my eyelids, blackin' out
Bleedin' out
Silence louder than a twisted tongue lying
As sick as our secrets
Shadow people and needles fading
Through a peephole
Bedtime stories from purgatory, I miss you

For the record, I can fly
Around the world absorbing light
Something's missing deep inside the light

Somethin' changed in Texas
Guess I missed the message
Look, I missed my exit
I'm living like a Jetson
I was broke and desperate
Leanin' on my best friends
Only shot callers I was around was bartendin'
Ain't no love in this game, mama
This is not tennis take your shoes off
We just did the carpets in
I can the take the hatin'
I can take the praisin'
It's all noise to me, I'll turn into Satan
Y'all stuck in The Matrix
Red pill, blue pill
All these different faces
All these different cases, shit
Y'all done seen me naked
So I'ma wear what I want now
And I ain't finna fake it
Thank God I made it
Thank God I seen God last summer
I was standing on the bridge
I seen all y'all under me
Know you are struggling
Niggas out here juggling
Losin' jobs and losing God
Then everything is tumbling
Feel Heaven rumbling, the rapture is coming
I love the attention, I'm a bastard in public
I still struggle with tellin' my mom
Who I'm in love with subtleties in between
Way these diamonds gleam
When Thanksgiving come around
I still don't see 'em
When Christmas come around, nigga
I still don't see 'em
Told the world who I was before
I got to know Ian
They gave my people money in
Exchange for their freedom
I would give it all back for
A chance to free 'em