BROCKHAMPTON - TONYA lyrics

And mother, I am sorry, I never pick up
Mm hmm because I'm afraid to disappoint
Ooh, ooh ah, ooh, no

Hey, and I've been feelin' like I
Don't matter how I used to
Hey, and I've been feelin' like I
Don't matter how I used to

We were sat outside on the Harvard floor
With our feet in dirt, and our hearts in awe
I be losin' sleep thinkin' 'bout missed calls
And I see the names circlin' our thoughts
And I think about if we lose it all
And I turn to shit that you'd never want
Like the smoke, the drink, anything at all
And I'll say again, "Sorry I don't call"
There's no money on my mind
But my money or my mind
What's the first to fall?
I never wanted this shit, yeah

Hey, and I've been feelin' like I
Don't matter how I used to
Hey, and I've been feelin' like I
Don't matter how I used to

Sometimes, it be so spot on it hurts
Like when Auntie couldn't decide between
Going to work or church, i been
In my feelings on an island in the dirt
I feel like brothers lie just so
My feelings don't get hurt
I said, "I'll try vacation
I'll try to run away"
I deleted Facebook, I'll trade fame any day
For a quiet Texas place and a barbecue plate
I'll switch my place if that's good for you
Is that good for you?
My ghost still haunt ya, my life is I, Tonya
A big-eyed monster, only face to conquer
I hated songs about fame 'cause
That stuff meant nothin'
Until them headlines came
Then first flight I'm stuck in

And maybe it means nothing
But I have to say I think about you often
And if you want no part with me
I'll walk away
I know that I have wronged you
And maybe it means nothing
But I have to say I think about you often
And if you want no part with me
I'll walk away
I know that I have wronged you

I took a plane to somewhere
That I've never been
Too many times without my
Sister and my brother
Dad or mother by my side
But they're in spirit
I always hear it, I know they feel it
My mama always had these dreams that used
To keep her up at night
I smoke to keep them all away
And make use of the time i'm void of feelin'
The reasons I'm so out of
Touch now start revealin'
But I'm not ashamed
I'm not afraid of who I am
Or how I trust my mental, yeah
It's not perfect
But I guess that's just the shit I'm into
I fantasize about a time
When everything was simple
My shelter sheltered me from things
I needed to commit to
The way it stands to me
A victim of Stockholm in
My friendships and family

What's costin' your time? What's the
Reason that you whine?
What's in your wallet? Dead whites in mine
So sour, in this light of lime
Daddy said "Study or get that cash"
Mommy said "Your career ain't gon' last"
Loose change, call a cab, move out their pad
I just need a chance to move past my past
Don't think too fast
Private jets still crash
And I'll still fly coach
And I'll still hit a roach
And I'll still see roaches at the
Crib where my folks at
Touch your dreams 'fore you touch
Me and provoke a man
(Somebody's gonna have to tell the truth
And I'm gonna tell it)

I will i will
(I don't matter) i will
(Ahh) can I tell you how?
Can I tell you now? I will