Candi Carpenter, Brandi Carlile - Dirt Around the Tree lyrics

I was born in the fall
The season when everything is dying
We must know what we're in for
That's why we come into this world crying

My mother always told me life's not fair
That’s probably why I ran away
I don't think that I felt safe at home
And I don't think that's ever gonna change

Tell me
What's at the root of all my guilt and anger?
What's in the dirt around the tree
Heartbreak runs in the family
That's why I'm still running from me

I read that trauma is genetic
Who was the first to hand it down?
Was it my grandpa or his father?
You can't ask someone who ain't around

Tell me
What's at the root of all my guilt and anger?
What's in the dirt around the tree?
Heartbreak runs in the family
That's why I'm still running from me

I wanna be more than a lost little girl
I'm gonna grow up someday
Maybe I'll plant another family tree
Somewhere far, far away

Far from the root of my all guilt and anger
The blood in the dirt and on the leaves
Tell me
What's at the root of all my guilt and anger?
Am I who I'm supposed to be?
Heartbreak runs in the family
That's why I'm still running from me
Heartbreak runs in the family
Why am I still running from me?