Chase, Flowz Dilione - Brothers in Arms lyrics

Think of the days and the
Things that have changed
Think  of the ways that I'm living today
Think  of the crazy decisions I’ve made
That I live with and sick
With and wish to replace
But, I didn't, I admit I'm afraid I just
Live  with the pain and I
Drift through the day
And  I'm sorry for those things that I say
Get so mad blank out in a fit in a rage
Put  myself in a different
Place a different state
Of mind at times I don’t think I could change
I was distant‚ I was drifting away
I was always tryna quit
You just didn't relate
And  everything I'd come over‚ you'd
Give me a taste and put me back in that
Cycle that I literally hate
But, if I hate It so much‚
Then how come I didn't escape
You see I, had to stall yo I, had to fall
But now I'm back tryna grab It all
So with this pad Involved
And this language told
Just sit back and watch this matter unfold
See I had to evolve I had to manage control
I had to latch at that passion
I had in my soul
What ever happened‚ it don't matter no more
As long I'm back on this course
You I battle this war
I get trapped in these thoughts
That don’t happen to stop
Frozen stiff broken although
The traveling cost
It feels like I’ve got the manager’s
Job tryna' challenge the boss
For salary costs for all the cash
That I’ve lost I’m getting nowhere
But won't happen to stop till I'm back on
The top so all you challengers watch out
Cause that day then I got nothing to say
Well I'ma keep moving and give
You something to chase

Yeah, I have cancer in my
Brain am I schizophrenic
A straight jacket holds me close and
I'm fit to wear It
In a psych ward in my mind In with my parents
I wake up and no one’s there
Is It In my head?
I scream for help but the doctors
They just give me meds
And the series took my soul
Now I live in debt
I'm having deja-vu from my younger days
Tied down lights out am I fucking crazy
And Its way past you but I love you Grace
For staying with me in the
Hospital my heart Is yours
Force fed Haloperidol it’s hard to talk
Made to wash it down with
Oxycontin's I can hardly walk
I never been clean so my brains a mess
Medication got me faded I ain't making sense
I can't afford the help I
Need because I'm paying rent
Tryna put some food up on the
Table so my mates are fed
Hallucinations let me look at what I had
All alone I close my eyes and
Kick the footy with my dad
I see a different figure pictured
When they opened up
Numbers everywhere there some of money
That I owe my mum i told my psych I wanna
Quit she up the milligrams
Now they chop and screw the
Images I see like Instagram
Stuck In time apologizing at a friend’s grave
I don't trust anybody cause the way
I feel Is man made
Strapped to a bed doctors opposite
Of men in black dressed in all white like my
Mumsy in her wedding snaps
Wide awake while I’m dreaming of
Her face I'm Insane
That's why they’re sticking needles
In my veins
The wind beneath my wings what the
Writing on my neck says the bong in my hand
Is the meaning of a dead weight
Half my fam are living where the stars shine
I wanna leave this earth too‚ but I can't fly