Chris Patrick - Stand Tall lyrics

Messing with depression I'm still pissed
That I ain’t cope
Dealing with scandals in my head
Like I’m Olivia Pope
I got demons living inside me
Soul like Insidious Ghost
Body hopping to other people when
They get in too close
I got walls up for protection not
For me but more for you
Cause if I showed you all my problems
You would see how much I'm screwed
Can’t afford to let you bare my burden
I’m scared my lack of work on earth
Gon leave you sadly hurtin’
Back the fuck up for you safety
I won’t say it twice
If you dare cross the caution tape
It's gone cost you your lifе
I never asked to bе saved
I never asked for no savior
My faith is shaky like voices of
Those who ask for a favor
Like what the fuck you need?
Slave to my issues all the time
I feel nothing is free
Therapist be taxing so I’m
Ducking all the session shawty texting
"You Okay" but I be ducking all her message
Got me asking myself all
These different questions like

Should I be alive maybe i should leave
Imma be alright where I’m posed to be
Sadly I don’t know sadly I don’t know

Die to live, live to love
Open up your eyes and see my
Time is not worth giving up
Felt like I ain’t did enough
Liquor fills my liver let that
Jose Cuervo lift me up
Visions of the people that I lost
Are starting hit me up
Like nigga how’d you get here?
I’m still unconscious
Bodily fluids splurge from out me
As it hit my garbage
Throwing up sucks my body can’t control it
PlusI really feel alive
Within hopeless moment now I see it clear
If we all destined to die
Then i should never live in fear
If we all destined to fly
Then i should step away from peers
All them chains that’s in my mind
Should kindly start to disappear
Every time I speak to Nas
He try to tell me this the year
Every time I speak to God
I feel he might just hit decline
Cause he got faith in where I’m heading
It was made in my design
I’m expected to exceed in ways
That’s greater than the times
I might’ve doubted shit before but now
I think i made my mind

Cause i’m alive
Maybe I won’t leave imma be alright
Where I’m pose to be something that I know
Something that I know something that I know