Conquer Divide - Broken lyrics

I wish that I could end this
But I'm too afraid to try afraid to try
And I wanna scream

I feel it in my lungs, in every breath I take
In my bones, in my heart
With every smile I fake
The look of dead eyes, the fear
The lies and this disguise
And I feel it in my blood
And it makes me numb

I wish that I could end this
But I'm too afraid to try
And I don't know what to say to
You if you wanted to know why
I wish that things were easier but
The stars are not aligned
And my heart can't survive
The pain let's me know that I'm alive

Something surrounding me
Pulled under and I can't breathe
Reflections lie to me
I see what they don't see
The look of dead eyes, the fear
The lies and this disguise
And I feel it drowning me and I wanna scream

I wish that I could end this
But I'm too afraid to try
And I don't know what to say to
You if you wanted to know why
I wish that things were easier but
The stars are not aligned
And my heart can't survive
The pain let's me know that I'm alive

And I was broken
But now I'm standing on my own
A new moment to begin
The scars of our past don't
Have to hold us back
But I'm addicted to the way
You make me feel and i'll never understand
You'll never understand
(And I wanna scream)

I wish that I could end this
But I'm too afraid to try
And I don't know what to say to
You if you wanted to know why
I wish that I could hate you
But I cannot live a lie
And my heart can't survive
(My heart can't survive)
I wanted to stop breathing but
I'm too afraid to die
And I don't know what to say to
You if you wanted to know why
And now everyone is telling me
That I lost my mind
And if I tried to get me back
I'm scared of what I'd find

I am broken