Crypt0-Bear - Obfuscated fears lyrics

Looking at the moon, as my thoughts consume
Nostalgia for my past, till the pain resume
Evaded all my hurts, like an av hook
Obfuscated all my fears, then she took a look

My darkest days behind
But sometimes I rewind
The moon in 17, I almost lost my mind
Trading with the leverage
The pain is an advantage
When you feel heartless
You can't feel your losses

Lost myself when I made it
Ms are just a title
Get rekt in time, To repeat the market cycle
Chasing gains with no motive
Becausе your life is frozen
The warmth of connеction
Missing with no conjunction
Bar hopping with false idols
Just to simulate affection
Materialistic ties
Just to help the dreaded introspection
Close my eyes to reflection
As the mirror gets attention
Antisocial on my media
Real life don't get a mention

Hyper realities, existential fantasies
Of me and misery, they do not understand me
Chasing validation, a cringe infatuation
Talking money talk, I get it like donation

They say you're never loved
Until you learn to love yourself
The background of the story
Blended full of irony we build up walls
To patch our vulnerabilities
Big firewall, I can't connect no tcp

Handshakes and fake friends
So paranoid at no ends
I remember when I dreamed
That I could afford a benz
I wanted to flex, Like a workout in the gym
I just wanted to be wanted
With a life that could have been

Chasing type of women
That bring damage to your soul
End up feeling empty
Every-time you get the goal
Fake personas, like my handles on the web
Fake love no connection
Made sure to kill the thread

In the network, but the internet is slow
Plus the file share is broken
And the admin never logs
Past reminders, ghost who move in silence
Mod my operator cuss I never get remainders

Who am I, Like I just popped a shell
Inspecting characters
Like I learned to spell questioning my life
Dread cuts deeper than a knife
Rootkit's turn to bootkit's
But I will never tell

Signed code, Just to know that shit is real
If you know what I know
Then you know how I feel
Paranoia sings, Like a bird with broken wings
Someday we fly away
But for now we trade the swings

Profit for a motive
That goes deeper than sea creatures
Trying to change the ways
Before we lose our present future
Hard to readjust
When the just froze like frost
Hard to shill defi
When a cell is home to Ross

Real hackers move in silence
AFK i'm paying homage underground my sound
Because the mainstream isn't fond
Of people waking up
To the lies when they've been told
That riches all await them
When they stick to play their role

Shit is not foretold, wallet hot
My heart is cold
OS import functions, But no sleep I only hold
Run this shit forever
Boot partition for my grind
I don't drink, so emulation
Only time that I wine

Sticks and stones, broken bones with no spine
Miss the net
Like an amateur tennis player on the line
Alphabet boys, with the big budget clubs
Their malware on the prowl
Booted up like shit is grub
Jump addresses, make em dance
On my routed table
No wireless, I'm advanced
Hardwired with my cable
No chance, grand entrance
Hacking to some trance
Techno mr roboto, I'm two tired like a moto

Cycle, more cycles like I got
A lot of threads entropy filled
Like flipping coins I turn heads
Redpill on the daily, I'm not talking meds
Polka dot, circle small, I can spot the feds