Cxrpse - IF MY PARENTS SAW ME NOW lyrics

Yo, th-this- this "life" shit is
Hard as fuck sometimes
That's all I have to say
I will make your corpse dance

Everybody always say they wanna die
 but they would miss this
The earth, the air
The feelings that’s gon' have
You feelin' different i been gettin’ older
Thinkin' bout the shit I've witnessed
A lot of my friends gone
And I created all the distance i was young
They used to tell me: "Don't do
Drugs for all your issues"
When crying's not enough
And then you soak through all the tissues
Lookin' from the outside
I don't wanna be in his shoes
'Cause everythin’ is hittin’ harder
And this shit continues
My birthday's in a couple of weeks
I can’t think
Feelin' anxious, cop a bottle and drink
Another bottle in the corner
More blood down the sink
Just to cope with all the pain
Because it hurts when I speak

It's all shit you can't
See through the screen
You can’t see I kill myself
By smokin' on nicotine
Sometimes I'm up late
And I just wanna scream
'Cause if my parents saw me now
They would think I'm a fiend

I don't know how the fuck I'm alive
I been through so much, time after time
And sometimes I zone out
'cause the past rewinds
And then I think about some shit and
End up stuck in my mind
Look, one time I saw a man get shot
I saw a hole in his head
Then that man got popped
He opened up his fuckin' door
Next thing you know, it was cops
There was a shootout on the block
I wanted that shit to stop

You got a little personal there
Mister CXRPSE (Oh boy)
Are you okay to go?
(Here we fuckin' go again)

All my dreams are at the bottom of a bottle
All these fuck-up rappers tryna
Fuck the finest models (for what?)
I'm just 'tryna stay alive
And maybe see tommorow
Because I'm just a human and I
Know this time is borrowed
And now, in my older days
I wanna see my friends happy
Gettin' overpay
Because all this time is limited
And so is pain if depression was a nigga
He should hold this fade