Dan Bull - Misfit lyrics

Oh, sod it
It hurts but I'll reveal the truth
Sometimes I'd like to curl up
And be a recluse
I mean it, it isn't simply an excuse
I'm really feeling too weak to deal with you
Do you see what I've been reduced to?
A shadow of myself with the bleakest future
I zone out, open myself
And only hope someone else
Knows what I'm about
It's lonely when you've felt so
Low you can't help but want to go for broke
And throw in the towel
Go to the cabinet, open the tablets
Overdose and lay comatose in the
Bath with the tap running
That's not what I planned when
I had hope though
I once was the man in the photo
Laughing with no load on my
Back and no hassle
And the path to my happiness
That was still open in the past had I known
That all that was over
Perhaps I'd have known how to
Claw back those years
I was sober, no drugs, I had a girlfriend
But now I'm a loner that hopes the world ends
How did I fall into all this torment
I never portended this result then
I wanted four kids, a mortgage
A crib with all the fittings
But all I'm getting's more bored and morbid
According to laws of physics
Actions all cause others
Yeah? So howcome I don't have
Some sort of lover? It's all just rubbish
All religions and philosophical offerings
Of knowledge on the source of our suffering
It's just a thing thought up by
People who lie to decieve
All the world to lie at their feet
So I'm actually beginning to believe
That perhaps it's time for me to leave

Cos I'm a misfit - I'm not an alpha male
Misfit - my health's too frail
I'm a misfit - worn out and pale
Misfit - I'm bound to fail

I'm a misfit - your inane conversation
Misfit - puts a strain on my patience
I'm a misfit - please, take me away from all
Misfit - this pain and frustration
I'm a misfit

Do I freak you out with what I speak about?
Like I'm not even allowed to reveal myself
Cos it breaches how people seem to chat
It seems they really don't want
To hear the real Dan but piss off
I'm just not interested in small talk
I'd much more discuss thoughts on Bush
War and such all the fuss all you fucks
All get flustered with football
Means fuck all to me cos it's just sport
And that's all don't you ever sit and think
About the bigger things
And how to figure things out
That aren't just physical?
The little bit of history we fit into
How we're writ into it
And what it means to us
I feel I don't ever belong, what a misfit
But see, don't get me wrong
I'm not a thick kid
Cross my fingers, I've got witnesses of this
I think it's some kind
Of condition or sickness
That inhibit's my ability to fit
In with hip kids
Sit and sip drinks without feeling ridiculous
Is there something I've missed
Is this all just a trick?
Can you all just admit
That you're being pricks
For shit's and giggles? It itches and niggles
This list of questions, riddles and things
That fill my head and inner
Sense with visions of maliciousness
With this malevolence I'm stripped
Of my innocence
The pinnacle thing beginning my wishlist's
A vision in which I'm just
Hindered with less stress so if I sink into
And addiction and alcoholism
Can I be forgiven for wishing to skip this
Abyss of decisions? This piteous pit
Full of pissy and shit citizens
Cos if this planet I've seen's
The epitome of existence then shit
You can literally sit and spin on it

I'm a misfit - I'm not an alpha male
Misfit - my health's too frail
I'm a misfit - worn out and pale
Misfit - I'm bound to fail

I'm a misfit - your inane conversation
Misfit - puts a strain on my patience
I'm a misfit - please, take me away from all
Misfit - this pain and frustration

Cos if this planet I've seen's
The epitome of existence then shit
You can literally sit and spin on it