Dax - JOKER lyrics

LexNour give me the beat and a mic
Give me the freedom to write
Give me the vision to see my demons and
Beat 'em at night
Give me the pen and the pad
Give me a couple of stans
Gave you a percentage but I'm taking
Home all of the bag
Give me definitive and unlimited amounts
Of people loving me and
Call upon everybody who came before
Me and tell them to come and inject me with
Whatever they're smoking man

I'm sick! (indeed)
But I think you know that already
You call me evil but how would you
Know it unless you live it already?
You think you’re better right?
Cause nobody's seen what you’ve done
In the dark but
If I put your life in this light
You would crumble and fight to survive or die
But bitch I fucking knew that already
I ain't special
But I specialize in making you feel
Especially stupid for judging a human
While you sit at home and
The whole world can't watch
What you're doing or follow and
Hate all your movements
I ain't complaining but I know the
People who do it are sicker
Than me and I'm sick enough
I just might lose it
Ya, you think you know me 'cause
You double tap on a picture
I hate the fact that you judge me
It’s driving me crazy so when
It’s too deep I say fuck it
And drown in some liquor
I write these verses in blood
I got chapters for
Days 'cause my heart is a biblical scripture
And I ain't a prophet but I can predict that
You’ll never catch happiness till
You're the pitcher
So please continue to laugh
If I’m a clown you're a circus act
When I rap it’s in a surgeon's mask
Cause I place every syllable in a
Deliverable fashion from first to last
Then cut back with a message that’s hidden
In melody making them think and ask
If I was the one on the table pushing
Giving birth to rap maybe it was me
Maybe you like all my music but
Don’t really actually love me
Maybe you just want a picture
Maybe you just want to see me
'cause you need some money
Maybe you think that I’m happy
Maybe you think in reality liking my
Post is repairing a hole when
It’s actually shaking and cutting the
Soul right out of me i think I’m sick
I feel a rush of emotion whenever
I post up a pic i got a problem
I’m in the studio rapping while this
Girl is sucking my dick
She cut a hole in my heart now I fill it
With women who love me 'cause
They think I’m rich
And if I be honest I just told a bitch that
I care but I really do not give a shit
So what’s your excuse? What helps you sleep?
You leave a negative comment not knowing
What you soul you will reap
I bet you smile when you
Post, thinking you're hurting me
But you see the way the brain
Works you become what you speak
I need peace!
But y’all can’t offer that (you can't)
I held my ground, I didn’t sell my soul
I said fuck the fame
Y’all can take that offer back
Fuck a shelf you can't take me off the rack
All the fame is not worth the heart attack
You're insane, you're in pain, I can
Tell by what you're saying, but
My bad, I forgot you were fragile
I forgot someone who doesn't even know
Me told you I'm an asshole
I forgot that I’m the villain
I forgot that I’ve always spread positivity
But you think I didn't
I forgot that hatred stems from people
Who hate their own existence
I forgot I’m better off alone
I forgot I care for everyone's happiness
But forget about my own
I forgot I spend every waken
Second on my phone, hahahaha
Come and join my circus, I’m recruiting
I’m taking everyone who
Passes judgement bitch, that’s including
Everyone who thinks it’s so amusing
To put me down while I’m pursuing
The keyboard warriors that live online behind
A screen that's just an illusion
Come, come, come, come join my circus
You fucking pricks
I’ll fuck you till you love me then
Pay you to do some tricks
I don’t need a doctor I need a bag of nails
And bricks to lay down on the floor so if
You fail to land a flip you can feel what I
Felt when you tried to come sink my ship
Let me explain
You all help me financially gain
But I spend my money on
Mental health books and
Read them just to control all my pain
I don’t wear clothes
But bought this chain and just like
You this chain is fake
I wear it to distract you from the
Blatant sadness written on my fucking face
What'd you expect?
Did you think I was immune to what you were
Saying and didn’t see all of the disrespect?
Do you think I’m not human, have no feelings
Or maybe you think I’m fucking
Weak and now I’m pleading
Maybe you think I’m just too good
And that I’m fucking cheating?
Or maybe, just maybe
You're blind and the hate inside
Your heart clouds your eyes
And your mind and your ears when I rhyme
Even though we all know I’m one
Of the best of all time
Or maybe you're just a fucking
Bitch and I can't-
Stop comparing me to people who
Are not in my league
Stop saying I don’t believe in God
Just because you can’t read
Stop making fake profiles so you
Can spam my feed i'm not alone
I know there's millions out
There just like me