Derez De’Shon - Don’t Judge Me lyrics

This shit ain't nothin' like it used to be
I just found out that my friends
And family be usin' me
Medicine cabinet full of pills
And I'm abusin' it (yeah I'm abusin')
Fuck lookin' for Waldo 'cause
I'm losing me
I used to look up and see stars
Now when I look up it's hard
'Cause when I look up I be down on
My knees and I'm talkin' to God
My mama ain't say it was easy but
She never said it was hard though
Remember her slamming that car door
How you fucked me up, only God know
And now a young nigga hardcore
Walkin' this dark road
I should've bought some more leashes 'cause
All of my dogs gone
The shit that I'm learning, you
Could never teach it
Not even on smart phones
I must've been under some
Type of hypnosis 'cause
Now when I look back I'm far gone

I hold my head up to keep tears from fallin'
And they just roll down the side of my cheek
What you know 'bout going
To Plato's Closet?
Sellin' clothes, tryna buy somethin' to eat
('Cause you hungry and your children hungry)
Got a bright future but
That shit ain't promised
When any day you can die in the streets
So don't judge me, don't judge me
Until you lay your head where I sleep
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

I can't even lie, it hurt me
I became another person
Remember when I had a purpose
Now I'm lookin' for a purpose
Lurkin', and I'm poppin' them percs
Yeah that cup dirty, cup ice like a Slurpee
Slurppe when I was down niggas curved me
Made me take off the jersey
When the cost to love you wasn't worth it
But I forgive you, no one's perfect
Had a nigga feelin' worthless, whoa
Watch a nigga thumb through it
Problems, I was goin' through 'em
Partner beggin' me to rob him and I'm
Beggin' him not to do it
A hundred niggas all around you but you feel
Like the only one that's in the room
Like you got a voice but you can't speak
Yeah
You wake up to sunlight shining all on you
But you just ready for the moon
Ready to fall asleep, yeah yeah

I hold my head up to keep tears from fallin'
And they just roll down the side of my cheek
What you know 'bout going
To Plato's Closet?
Sellin' clothes, tryna buy somethin' to eat
('Cause you hungry and your children hungry)
Got a bright future but
That shit ain't promised
When any day you can die in the streets
So don't judge me, don't judge me
Until you lay your head where I sleep
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

The moon and sun is fascinating to my eyes
If the sun is shining, moon
And all the stars up in the sky
I'm seeing more than the average human eye
In the dark is where I
Live, lord let me shine, yeah