Dolltr!ck - What If I ​ lyrics

Sometimes I wonder
Sometimes I wonder, what if I
Sometimes I wonder, what if I yelled back
What if I had been born and raised in Korea
What if I had pursued music full-time
Sometimes I wonder sometimes I wonder
What if I were fearless
What if I had a time machine
Especially if I had received
Like, a lot of support as a kid
Sometimes I wonder what if I were free
From people’s expectations
Like, how would that change my life
And how would that change the world
What if I just left it
All behind and started over
Sometimes I wonder
What if I moved to another country
I think a lot about those questions
I still wonder that today

If I could revisit one of my life choices
It would be, uh
If I could revisit one of my life choices
It would be to give myself more breaks
I wouldn’t, like
Really revisit anything in my past
Outside of, like, just, reflecting
If I could revisit one of my life choices
It would be the days I chose despair
Back then, I thought it was the only option
Like, I don’t really regret anything
Going to a high school that my
Mom wanted me to go to
Instead of studying vocal music at LaGuardia
Which is a competitive
Specialized high school
I try not to think too much about
Things past that I can’t change
I am the person that I am because
Of the choices that I made
And they all compound on one another

One thing in life I don’t regret is
Taking chances and following my passions
One thing in life I don’t regret
Though, all this being said, is
Taking chances and putting myself out there
One thing in life I don’t regret
One thing in life I don’t regret
Is choosing to stay alive
Choosing creativity over assimilation
One thing in life I don’t regret is
Letting go of what others think of me
That chance is not guaranteed and
When putting myself out there
Could end in failure
Speaking up when I could about
Things that matter to me
Not to be somebody who
Is gassing themselves up
But I think I’m pretty, like chill, so
One thing in life I don’t regret
One thing in life I don’t
Regret is doing my best
And to always try to do the right thing
If I could talk to my past self
I would tell her to just go for auditions
Tell her to trust her gut more
If I could talk to my past self, I would
Tell me to be myself
Tell her that she’s smart
Tell her to just kind of chill out you know
And not be afraid of everything
I would tell her to think less, and do more
And to study hard and be
Disciplined in your practice
Because that’s important
I’d tell her to keep it up
Your intuition is better than you think it is
Honestly, if you feel
Emotional about something, just
Be emotional be mad
One day, I would meet really cool
Asian American mentors in my life
It doesn’t matter what other people think
And if I could talk to my past self
I would say just go for it