Dre Murray - Benjamin's Curse lyrics

Just as I was bound to lose my mind
I heard a voice sweeter than wine
Do you remember way back when?
Let me make you a child again
Do you remember way back when?
Let me make you a child again
Do you remember way back when?
Let me make you a child again
I want to see your smile again
See your smile again

A young lad trying to make it in a land
Where being a black man
They hardly understand
Me neither I rarely had a leader
To bypass the bottle, to show me that I can
Be a beacon of light, be a giver of hope
Instead of taking a life
Showing you what I tote
Bag it up at the end 'til
The end is at my throat
The end being my death when
The means is selling dope
So I took another route mapping my life out
In the end I wanted dollars let's
See what this life's bout
Round after round in my city It's going down
Like Pacquiao intrigued like mama
Look what I found
In the ground there's a gold
Mine I don't wanna escape
This feeling I can't replace see your
Dreams will have to wait
On this grind I want the cake
Ain't even my birthday
But, I'm hungry and thirsty
But I'm hearing this earth say

Everyday is a roller coaster, and
I'm not ready for the ride
Life can drive you crazy
Everyday is a roller coaster, and
I'm not ready for the ride
Life can drive you crazy

These four walls got a voice of they own
And I listen
My mind missin' in the city where the
Hope is gone and crime risen
The same box that had me
Intrigued is now prison the church I see a
Schism and treacherous competition
So the answer's not religion for me I
Got a mission of my own
And I'm wishing to be anything that I see
To get me out of this hell yeah
My thirst has increased
It's pretty dry in the well police
They want me to fail
That's how I feel when they throw a young kid
In the back of a squad car
Not telling me what I did
I'm just trying to live, just trying to grow
Just trying to learn, just trying to show
That I can be somebody in this world of hate
That's terrified of my face
So they can't relate insane see
That's the reason why I chase the fame
To show em' we equal and inside the same

Tell me how am I suppose to brace myself
When it always comes from where
I least expect
Tell me how am I suppose to brace myself
When it always comes from where
I least expect

Now, my own people pulling me down
Crabs in a bucket I'm feeling like my luck is
Run out I pull up on my throne
They pull the guns out
Like I ain't from here they tell me since
I got what they wanted first
I can never ever come here
They say they run here
And I ain't welcome no more
This ain't home add some obscenities
To the convo and yup!
That would be the sum here
They bout' they math
Lookin' like one they can grab they a 99
So to keep it 100 and show they run it
"That chain and that watch is mine"
See, it's like a fine that
You pay when you say
"Oh, my family, they doing fine" Nope
Not a crime
They took my watch so I'm out of time
Put the barrel to my face and I lost my mind
Bang

Just as I was bound to lose my mind
I heard a voice sweeter than wine