Dyscaine - It's Okay lyrics

I hurt myself today to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

I remember I was 10
I had my first encounters with depression
My notebook chalked with suicidal thoughts
In lyrics pressed in
Ink on paper illustrations of
A smith and Wesson
Review the past and repetition lead
Me to the present
Granted I’m feeling like many prefer
The gift of absence
Do want a wake, I want cremation
I don’t need a casket
Fake family and friends around to
Claim they know me really, if they did
I wouldn’t be as stressed or feel so lonely
I only blame a few, I ain’t been reachin out
But then again, reactions
The reasons words fails to leave my mouth
Advil PM as a substitute for xans
Don’t make me angry, make me
Sleepy, plus sobriety’s the plan, to kick
Off 2018, with no mollies in my
Hand, not even swisher sweets
I’m feeling weaker as I cram
Information, in my cranium, I keep on pacing
And hit me since I dropped the "Dr"
Peeps proceed to test my patience

(I hurt myself today) can you hear me now?
(I hurt myself today)
Don’t wanna scream or shout
(I hurt myself today)
Okay, never mind, it’s cool, it’s fine
I’ll be okay

Broken past will make you live your present
Life with no concerns about the future
Or even if you want one
When the stress is getting to ya
Recap all your qualities
The bad starts to abuse ya
The good becomes irrelevant and
Messes with your mood
And you telling yourself you’re worthless
Your cursed and inadvertently introverted in
Person and no one knows
That you’re hurting or cares to
Try to acknowledge the
Constant sorrows from all those times
That you sprinted from hell and back and not
Wanting to wake tomorrow
But it's propane for the slow pain
Tryna leave it all is cocaine when
What you wanted was a novacane
Mary Jane just don’t know your pain
Try to roll it all when some say that
You cannot just smoke it all away

I’m a low life, low class grade
Fallin, no one catch me, ditching all
My classmates, don’t wanna
Face, another face
Cause my anxiety attacks me
Packing all my bags to run away cause
I don’t need another in the ashtray

(I hurt myself today) can you hear me now?
(I hurt myself today)
Don’t wanna scream or shout
(I hurt myself today)
Okay, never mind, it’s cool, it’s fine
I’ll be okay

I’m a low life, low class grade
Fallin, no one catch me, ditching all
My classmates, don’t wanna
Face, another face
Cause my anxiety attacks me
Packing all my bags to run away cause
I don’t need another in the ashtray

(I hurt myself today) can you hear me now?
(I hurt myself today)
Don’t wanna scream or shout
(I hurt myself today)
Okay, never mind, it’s cool, it’s fine
I’ll be okay

I hurt myself today
Okay, never mind, it's cool, it's fine
I'll be okay