Emmy The Great - Secret Circus lyrics

I left my friends for the
Strangers of the town
Between dust and elephants
There can be no common ground
Time obscures their dreary tongues
Makes a ghost of everyone
Call them what they are a million shadows
They all get pregnant or diseased
I didn't send for you when I was meant to
Lost a friend in you, but then I meant to
And only my scars, only my scars miss you now
You told me that no matter where
I went would be a prison
That the world is harsh, I know it is but
It only hurts, it only hurts if you say "ow"
The things that you don't
Think about don't exist
The day I left there was a lightening strike
Left a border of flames
Tasted carbon on the night
Felt the shame of your name
And everybody knew the secret
Circus was a fairytale
But, I thought I saw a
Big top in the darkness
Thought I heard a whiplash split the sky
Should've heard the helicopter screaming
Everybody thought that they were gleaming
Everything was hot, the ground was steaming
Voices calling out across the water
Firemen and TV news reporters
Stepping on their video recorders
Oh but cameras are liars
I saw bears and there were tigers
And I heard brass in the
Hiss of the propeller sound
And there were shuffles in the desert
As the players gather round
And there were faces in the vapours
There were acrobats and clowns
You always told me that
I tend to overdramatise
But, I have seen these things
With my very own eyes
And then they faded into ether
And it's no surprise
I guess I didn't hear the call
For when the curtain died
Because the things you set
On fire don't exist