Emmy The Great - Two Steps Forward lyrics

In the middle of September
We entertained the thought
Of falling into rabbit holes
And never coming out
In the garden of a girl whose
Mum is friends with Elton John
So she kept telling us

But still
We slipped a year or so behind ourselves
The time's already gone
When people were just people
Not the jobs that they perform
Our songs were just a thing we
Did with melodies and chords
Now you're available in all
Good record stores

But, I knew you best
Back when love was just a feeling
That ran out between my legs
Onto the back of my dress
Onto the clothes that I was wearing

Oh, when I was a child
I was expected to believe
In something up above that no
One touches or can see
But they tell me that unless
You're looking out of magazines
Well then, you don't exist
But, I knew that you were real before
I read it in an interview today
Before I used you as a surface
Did a line across your face
In the toilet of a girl who's sitting outside
Dropping names like they were carpet bombs
She knows everyone

But, I knew you first
Back when love was underneath you
With my fingers in the dirt
You said, 'I'll stop if it hurts'
You said, 'I'll stop it if it's scaring'
You said 'You know that I
Can stop this any time
If you think that it is tearing'

And I think of you when the leaves are brown
I think of leaves that I have felt
Against my body on the ground
I think of places where we could go to now
Until they find us, 'til they catch us
'Til they wake us and we drown
Until I know where I am
I'm in a garden half-remembering your
Fingers in my hand
Were like a book made of sand

And it's the middle of September
Your image starts to fade
To the one that they have
Printed on the 27th page
Don't like to read these things
You know I do it anyway i have no choice
I have no choice, I say

And I go out in the garden
Where the birds begin to sing
And I'm troubled by the thought of
All the daylight they will bring
And I think that I will let
Somebody take me home again
'Cause if I knew you at all
Then my love was underneath you
Making puddles on the floor
And I'm asleep to the thought of
Two people walking two steps forward
Always to the lives they've chosen
Clicks and hums and sirens in the sun