Escapism, JadeGritty - Clarity lyrics

My memory is far out four wheels spinning
I still gotta dig the car out
I found nirvana on a small couch
Part of me is all out
The rest of it is all in
The recipe is falling visionary caution
Don’t visit very often coughing
Got five digit's on the coffin tossin'
Turn into the villain in the Gotham
Awesome whole world spinning on the clock in
Punch out lunch in
Skip that production grown up discussion
Own up to something nah, I’m too busy
With a whole bunch of nothing
Yeah, hold that assumption
Bubba Gump Trumpin' level up something
All out of punch ins goin on a hunch
Since I had to learn something -still awake
So i gotta burn something still a dream
So i gotta earn something still at work
But u gotta know something -new kaleidoscope
In everything that i have wrote heaven spoke
Told me that my shit is dope never knew
-where it never grows head to toe
Tagged this Rosetta Stoned bag
Talk to heaven and than let us know back

As far as i can see
I got things i need to be
I got god inside of me
I got angels up my sleeve

As much as i don’t know
I got plans i got to go
I got demons on my soul
I got evil in my bones

For years I feared the
Mirrors reflection cause the
Clearest perception just appeared as
Deception no accountability
Through these years of deflection
I wasn't hearing the question cause feared
Steered the direction

I read all the chapters but they
Were ordered backwards the reaction
To the deep hurt was knee
Jerk automatic the more I
Thought about it I saw it
Was sorta tragic cause I
Know I need some patch work
On my moral fabric

I've know that shit since I was
Fourteen I also know u
Ain't shit if u don't war
Scream for your team
Making my way Wading through a
Sea of Lost dreams Scooping
Out huge buckets of fuck it
From my thought stream

Cause it's Too much so sad too
Nuts gonads a nomad that
Travels around the parameters of his
Note pad I go and
Smoke dabs then rifle through my vocab
To find the words to
Define why I hold onto to what I don't have

Just tryna wear my insides on
The outside so I can
Walk around with out pride and
See where the doubt
Liestryna see without eyes and navigate
My way by the loud outcries of the egos
Who've been down sized

So I walk around corners of
The earth what they
Offered me is worse I wonder what all
Of this is worth I
Don't feel comfortable calling
This a verse this isn't getting up
It's falling in reverse