Ethel Cain - Golden Age lyrics

And I don’t wanna talk about love anymore
'Cause it’s getting too much for me
All I do is waste and decline
Waiting for that age of my life
When I'm old and love is all that I’ll need

Swaying in the lamplight in
My mother’s white gown
Holding out like a dog they’ve
Yet to put down
I whore out my tears and just keep
Wasting the best of my years
Like a beauty queen with eyes bleared

Got what I wanted but it’s
Never enough for me darling, don’t you see
I’m so beautiful and it’s wasted on me?
Because the taste reminds me
I hate what love’s turned out to be

I don’t wanna be in my house anymore
'Cause it just makes me sad
Letting in the wild with every man
Who brings a world of hurt
With him each time he falls in my bed

Do you just want my blood?
Am I just that damn hard to love?
'Cause it feels like all I have
Is still just not enough
I guess that I'll just go outside
And watch the fire and fields of
Gold fly farther away from me

Got what I wanted but it’s
Never enough for me darling, don’t you see
I’m so beautiful and it’s wasted on me?
Because the taste reminds me
I hate what love’s turned out to be

But one of these days, it’ll come right back
I’ll get over myself and
I’ll tell myself that
I don’t have to wait to be happy when I’m old
And that one of these days, I'll find a way
To fight the waves, embrace the pain
And paint the ages a hundred shades of gold
And of gold and of gold
And of gold

Got what I wanted but it’s
Never enough for me darling, don’t you see
I’m so beautiful and it’s wasted on me?
Because the taste reminds me
I hate what love’s turned out to be

And I have found a way, I found a way
I’m on my way, I’m on my way
Don’t wait too long
I don’t want you to get tired of me
But I’ll be coming along
I’m coming along, I’ll be coming along
I’ll be coming along, I’ll be coming along
I’ll be coming, I’m coming for you