Ethel Cain - Lead Poisoning lyrics

I fell in love again
September tends to be so cruel
He says my name and then
Blah-blah, so embarrassing
But then he came and leaned in
And asks have I seen how
It rains in the plains

Says he could take me there
He’s handsome as the day is long
All the while, inching his way in
Like summer stumbling to a fall
We sink into the carpet
Already wet with November’s rain, rain

I only bleed for him
Mascara running like a champion
He says my name and then
I come so hard I’d marry him
But then nirvana leaned in
And I lost myself again to the rain

He asks not "if" but "when"
Blah-blah, something meaningful
I don’t weave the thread
Just run my hands along it
But if I did, then hell
I’d spar with death to skip your name

I can see the end
In the beginning of everything
So I just play pretend
Like I don’t watch you leaving
But you were never there
Doctors blame the lead poisoning