Ethel Cain - Sun Bleached Flies lyrics

Sun bleached flies sitting in the windowsill
Waiting for the day they escape
They talk all about that money and
How their babies are always
Changing while they're breathing in the
Poison of the pain
What I wouldn't give to be
In Church this Sunday
Listening to the choir, so heartfelt
All singing
God loves you, but not enough to save you
So, baby girl
Good luck taking care of yourself

So I said fine
'cause that's how my daddy raised me
If they strike once then you just
Hit 'em twice as hard
But in the end
If I bend under the weight that they gave me
Then this heart would break and
Fall as twice as far

We all know how it goes
The more it hurts, the less it shows
But I still feel like they all know
And that's why I can never go back home
And I spend my life watching it
Go by from the sidelines
And God, I've tried
But I think it's about time I put up a fight

But I don't mind 'cause that's
How my daddy raised me
(How my daddy raised me)
If they strike once then you just
Hit 'em twice as hard
But I always knew that in the end
No one was coming to save me
So I just prayed and I keep
Praying and praying and praying

If it's meant to be then it will be
So I met him there and told him I believe
Singing if it's meant to be then it'll be
I forgive it all as it comes back to me
(Back to me)
If it's meant to be then it will be
So I met him there and told him I believe
(I believe, yeah)
Singing if it's meant to be then it will be
(Oh, oh)
I forgive it all as it comes back to me
(It comes back to me)
If it's meant to be then it'll be
(It'll be, it'll be, it'll be)
So I met him there and told him I believe
(Yeah)
Singing if it's meant to be then it will be
I forgive it all as it comes back to me (Oh)

I'm still praying for that house in Nebraska
By the highway, out on the edge of town
Dancing with the windows open
I can't let go when something's broken
It's all I know and it's all I want now