Forthwrite - Who Am I lyrics

Uh yeah
Yeah yo

Ayo, honestly I try and keep
My head in the sky
And keep reminding people always that
It's better to fly it's meant to be fine
Life should get better with time
But, it's hard to see the
Positive in negative vibes
And I'll never be remembering the
Lessons that they sold us
Yeah, I've got some shows but
No energy to roll up
It's getting hard to take the
Pressure on my shoulders
The need to succeed is getting
Stressful now I'm older
Pez, I'm praying that our
Chemistry will hold up
I hate always pretending to my
Parents I'm a solider
And if it really came to offing myself
I would
To make them happy I would offer myself
And in five years I'll go and
Get a job if it helps but give me one shot
And if it doesn't work I'll fuck off
And with music, yo
I'm hungry with an appetite
I'd rather die than sacrifice
Where my passion lies
I'm on the grind to make it happen
I don't fantasise
I'm really living right now
I don't need to act alive
You're scared of losing your job
But it's not anything you need to understand
Prosperity's not everything
Religious nuts who think they've come
To meet their maker
You don't worship anything except a
Fuckin' piece of paper
Don't get me wrong, yo
I would love to see a saviour
But, I got a life to live
I'll deal with brother Jesus later
And talk about world leaders
Getting named in songs
Anybody put into power's gonna get hated on
And yo, I'm sorry, yo
This verse might be crazy long
But, I'm just writing every train of
Thought my brain is on

Yeah real talk, uh

So do we have a cause? I wonder, damn
I'm too undermanned
Tryin' to understand what this planet's for
There's a manic force that's
Attacking back and forth
Anxious thoughts only 'cause they only
Make me panic more
Afraid to sleep 'cause the same
Dreams I had before
Keep on coming back for more
And so the pain repeats
Honestly, I know there's probably a way
To be free of this shit
But, I'm not seeing it, shit
See, I'm well aware that my
Awareness is a rareness
But, I'm scared it's gonna be the death
Of me 'cause it's tempting me
Damn, I hope that's not the reason
It all ends for me
I'll try to keep my head up-up
Until the Reaper's sent for me
But there's these questions and they never
Seem to let me be every week so tense, shit
It's an effort just to get to sleep
I feel my body now covered in tension
I didn't wanna end up here, nah
I had other intentions
If I was different then maybe
I'd see some movement
I'd take it and keep on moving, nah
I'm just being stupid
The truth is, I can see this wisdom is a gift
I don't know why I always try to
Say it isn't 'cause it is
But, I can also see the reason
They say ignorance is bliss
Looking back from where I'm at, see
It's the innocence I miss
Give me just a little bit
If there was anything that I could
Wish for with a wish
I'd say you've gotta know I wanna go
Back, back, and live with a mind
Back in a simpler time so I
Don't think all the time (Time)
Shit, I'm sorry if I'm raving on
I didn't mean to take this long
But that was just the train of
Thought my brain was on