Gabbie Hanna - Special lyrics

I'm not special
Who the hell am I to think I'm special?
I'm not so well (Thanks for asking)
But you'd probably figured
"What else is new?" i try my best still
But I find I wind up in some mess
You'll keep my head filled with the notion
That I don't deserve this
Life that I've built

I'm not special, special
Don't know why I thought
I could be someone I'm no one
To anyone who knows me, I'm a burden
I'm certain the only thing I'm good for
Is hurtin' the ones I love

I want to be special
But I don't know if it's
Worth all of this stress
You don't know my struggle 'cause
I don't tell it if I did
I really don't think you'd be bothered
To hear it, anyway
If I sang a song, would you listen?
Or would you tell me that I'm terrible?
(Tell me that I'm terrible)
If I played along to ease the friction
Would you still tell me that I'm terrible?
(Tell me that I'm terrible)

Oh, I'm not special, special
Don't know why I thought
I could be someone I'm no one
To anyone who knows me, I'm a burden
I'm certain the only thing I'm good for
Is hurtin' the ones I love

But the ones I love, they really love me
The ones I love, they truly know me
You drag my name, it's kinda funny
'Cause my name makes you lots of money

I guess I'm special, special
Who the hell are you to say I'm not special?
Oh well
Got everybody talkin' in this hell hole
I'm the devil
Dante wrote me into his inferno
Here we go, again

Is this what you came for? You paid for?
To watch somebody burn and
Crumble and stumble
Then fumble all my words and
Let you twist them
And listen to all the ugly things
You tell me I am

I'm tryin' so hard to understand how
I'm the master manipulator who
Couldn't fool anyone the monster
Reciprocator shot no bullets from my gun
The drama queen who never seems
To get applause from anyone
I won't be who you say I am

If I sang a song, would you listen?
Or would you tell me that I'm terrible?
I won't play along this game is twisted
And I think that would make me terrible
That would make me