Gabbie Hanna - The Waiting Game lyrics

He was screaming again
But this time felt different menacing i
Couldn't tell you today what he
Was so angry about I didn't even know
Then i never knew by this point
I had stopped trying to guess

He seemingly hated me but wouldn't
Let me leave him
He sunk his teeth in, filling me with venom
But would clench harder if I
Tried to pull away
He ignored my calls if I wanted him near
But he would stalk me what
I wanted him gone he would tell
Me he was done with me
But then destroy any chance of
Me forming a new relationship
It was made very clear: I was his property

He was seething again
But this time felt different fatal
I'd never seen his crystal
Blue eyes so black
His pale skin so red he was towering over me
In nothing but his boxers
His entire body swaying with
The intensity of his
Breathing his fists were clenched to the
Point of shaking on either side
Elbows bowed and ready to unleash

My keys, phone
And shoes were taken from me I was
Being held hostage i asked him
To please, please let me leave he told
Me no i asked him to please
Please let me have my things he
Told me no the door
Behind him let out to the
Alleyway that our apartments shared
Recognizing the challenge of trying
To get past him, i slowly
Back into the open doorway of
His bedroom i tried to
Remember the exact layout of
The apartment behind me
Planning my escape through the main entrance

Just as I was about to
Sprint barefoot from his apartment
His roommate walked in with whatever
Girl he brought home that
Night i locked eyes with him
Silently pleading for him to
Stay with a scoff and roll of his eyes
He walked back out as
Suddenly as he’d entered
My heart dropped as I sucked in a breath
And before
I can fully turn back around to face him
He grabbed me by the neck
And slammed me against the doorframe he
Closed the door on my back
And shoulders over and over before
Squeezing me one last time
Trapping me there

The door release and he pulled
Me back into the room
Locking the exit behind me i
Asked him what he wanted
"Get on your knees and beg"
I did as I was told
"Tell me how much you don't deserve me"
I did as I was told
"Suck my cock, fucking bitch"
I asked him if I could please have my things
If we could please have a nice night
"You're going to try and leave as
Soon as I give them back"
I reassured him that I would
Stay that I loved
Him and wanted to enjoy the evening together

As he turned to get my belongings
I subtly position myself closer
To the other door
The moment he placed them in my
Hand, I sprinted with everything in
Me outside, across the alleyway
And into my apartment my room
Was in the basement
So no one heard me enter

No one heard him enter

How could I fail the deadbolt
The door? I crawled into
My bed and pulled the covers to my chin
Trying to disappear
Into the darkness as I saw
A silhouette looming in the
Doorway, still in nothing but his
Boxers, I told myself
"You're going to die tonight" I held
My breath as he slowly, painfully slowly
Walked toward me every hair on
My body stood up
As he gingerly pulled the cover from me every
Muscle tense as he lay down next to me
Wrapping his arms around
Me in a way that reminded
Me what he could do, if he wanted

He was whispering
But I could feel him screaming
"You can never leave me
" he hissed into my ear
"I know, " I confessed
"Tell me you love me forever, " he demanded
"I'll love you forever, " I lied
He fell asleep i didn't close
My eyes all night

After that
It was a waiting game i was alone he had
Already told everybody I was crazy
And everybody believed him honestly, maybe I
Was i don't know how I couldn't
Be the same friends who had
Wiped the blood from my knees
When he pushed me down
The same friends who asked me
Why I was always covered
In bruises they were gone now i was afraid
To go to the police because
Everyone would say that
I was just trying to ruin his life
So, I waited, I waited, and I graduated
And then I was free