Gates - Pretending lyrics

I made promises not worth keeping
Spoke in lies that I don’t believe in
Then when there was nothing left to say
I would go on anyway

Loaned my love to a common thief and
Made my peace with the wrong diseases
Wondering like a wide-eyed memory
Why I still can’t walk away

Left to think in a foreign accent
Stolen words and adopted habit's
All the pains that were never even mine
So I could imagine your life
Lеad to light that had long been dying
I don’t know why I even tried whеn
All along it would never cross my mind
That I was pretending you were right
Buried deep like a darkest secret
Covered up till I couldn’t see it
When there was no place left
That I could hide i’d erase and overwrite

Brought along on a borrowed errand
Out for blood in an aisle left barren
But there was nothing left for me to find
That was even worth my time

Left to think in a foreign accent
Stolen words and adopted habit's
All the pains that were never even mine
So I could imagine your life
Lead to light that had long been dying
I don’t know why I even tried when
All along it would never cross my mind
That I was pretending you were right
Pretending you were right

So why die when it’s not my sword to fall on?
And why try when I’m right where I belong?

I made promises not worth keeping
Spoke in lies that I don’t believe in
All the pain that was never even mine
So I could imagine a life
Born of blood and devoid of meaning
All the things I could never be
With all the love left leading on the lie
I’ve resigned
'cause I'm right where I belong