GrewSum - DOWN lyrics

It's been hard to love myself while
My brain isn't working correctly
My emotions are fucked up and
Broken, I know it
But still I just hold it against me
Made a lot of questionable choices
The voices in my head annoy me, avoid 'em
I can't really, can't get away, can't cope
And you don't understand that
I'm lacking the dopamine
Fell face first into self hatred and
I can't get myself back out
So I just mix opiates up with the copious
Amount of liquor until I pass out
(Until I pass out) lay in bed until three pm
Saw no choice but to take that route
Seems so hard just to get back up when

All I know is down stuck beneath the ground
Tryna figure out how to gеt
Myself out of this but all I know is down
If I don't come around
Soon I'll nevеr figure
Out how I'm gon' love myself again
Cause all I know is down, down, down, down
All I know is down, down, down, down
All I know is down

Sometimes I just miss being young
Back before addictions and rum
Dumb kids that would run with ambitions and
Just have fun in the sun
We were living it up now I wake up, take my
Prescriptions, light a cigarette up
Get it into my lungs go through the motions
Pissed I've become someone that I hate
And who lives like a bum
Depression is something I never
Expected to wrestle with
Or that I'd wish to be dead
When I can't get the negative thoughts in
My head to quit nagging me constantly
(Got me on edge again)
I always thought I'd grow up to be
Better than who I am now
Stuck in my bed again, stuck to the ground
Fuck it I'm out all I know now is

All I know is down stuck beneath the ground
Tryna figure out how to get
Myself out of this but all I know is down
If I don't come around
Soon I'll never figure
Out how I'm gon' love myself again
Cause all I know is down, down, down, down
All I know is down, down, down, down
All I know is down