GrewSum - Lose Control lyrics

I’ve been watchin', waitin'
Hopin' for somethin' to make me whole
Always wonderin'
Thoughts keep runnin' through my skull
'til I lose control

Can someone tell me where my mind went?
Cause I can’t seem to find it
It’s music and making money and
The money that I spent
Has got me stuck here with nothing, and look
Ain't even a dime left
And my rent is broke just like
I’m buried to my neck
And my dent, but gentlemen
I'm out on the grind
Yet something in me screamin' "don't
Let it die yet"
So I've been sittin' at this fucking desk
So long my damn spine bent
Trying to get the pieces to fit
Goddamn it, I feel like I’m ready to snap
I’ve been giving it everything that I have
Over half my life wrapped in
These fucked up raps
I've been in the dirt, there be someone
I'm burning 'em up and murdering tracks
Still in traps
Searching for some other way to
Get over the scabs
That’s where I’ve been, 'til I make it
This is where I’m at
I’m here to feed off this plate
And I ain't leavin' no scraps
No matter whatever I'm thinking or
Speaking, I'm the inevitable, y'all better
Believe in the reason I exist
I I I I can't, fuck no man

I’ve been watchin', waitin'
Hopin' for somethin' to make me whole
Always wonderin'
Thoughts keep runnin' through my skull
'til I lose control

This town is breaking me down
I’ve been screamin' so loud but
You ain’t hearin' my sound
Go on these rounds, tryna buckle it down
Wanna see me high, but I live in the ground
Like a ghost in this game
I don’t feel it the same
Ain’t nobody hear me
They ain’t speakin' my name
Try to bring change and they
Look at me strange
Keep it the same man, simple and plain
I’m speakin' from the heart man
Not for the charts let the beat speak to me
Every time that it starts
Then I just pop off, no
This ain’t a pop song this is my life
I don’t know when and where I went wrong
Pretty grim outlook, I ain’t get no handbook
Look at me now
Gettin' everything that you took
Hatin' on my motivation
This is demonstrated
Stayin' on my grind and I
Know you fucking hate it (yeah)

I’ve been watchin', waitin'
Hopin' for somethin' to make me whole
Always wonderin'
Thoughts keep runnin' through my skull
'til I lose control

Yeah, uh
What’s it really gonna take to make it?
Without sellin' my soul to Satan?
I’m well known for flows that
Are more than basic i stole the bases
Headin' home and my goals I'm chasing
Having cold metaphors and a dope arrangement
Apparently ain’t enough, when you’re broke
You ain’t shit throw 'em mad dough and the
Radio will play it then slowly pay back all
The loans and payments
Yeah, money is the root of all, evil
And it’s true that all people only
Call you when they need you
Like a booty call
They’ll keep you at the bottom like you're
Not allowed to bloom at all
You holdin' me back cause they
Know that I’ll snap
When I’m up on the track I’m super raw
I wanna make it while I’m still in my prime
Held behind all the time
They don’t want me to shine
Tell 'em "fine I don’t mind
We just keep on the grind
We a different design"
(we a different design) , yeah

I’ve been watchin', waitin'
Hopin' for somethin' to make me whole
Always wonderin'
Thoughts keep runnin' through my skull
'til I lose control
I’ve been watchin', waitin'
Hopin' for somethin' to make me whole
Always wonderin'
Thoughts keep runnin' through my skull
'til I lose control