GrewSum - OUT FOR ME lyrics

You know back when I started when
I was young and fresh
I really thought I was the fucking best
I got way too much way too early
Everyone's impressed
Before I even knew it my favorite
Rappers were ones I met
It all went to my head
I can't deny that my ego was taking over
I was stupid with the shit I
Was doing to gain exposure
If anyone didn't say I was great
Then I'd straight explode and
Create a motive to say something
Vain and insanely vulgar
I was burning every bridge that I'd built
I didn't think I needed
Anyone except for myself
Now that I'm older I can notice it well
I was no one to help
But now I'm grown and I still
Struggle to get over it still
Because no matter how I've changed my name
Is still getting drug through the mud
I'm not sure that I ever could
Do enough to get loved
The way I did when I started this music up
I know I'm not the same
Grew that screwed it up

I think the game is tryna kill me, yeah
The game has got it out for me
I don't know why
It seems like everybody feels me
I can't figure it out
I stay stuck no matter what I try
I gave my whole life to the rhythm
I don't understand what it's gonna take
To make it out it alive
I think the game is tryna kill me, yeah
The game has got it out for me
I don't know why i don't-I don't know why

You know
Now that I'm older it's starting to pile up
Everyone considers me a failure and
My mind is stuck i barely ever stick to a
Job for an entire month
'Cause all I ever think about is
Music because I'm in love
So when I try my luck I
Don't know how to not obsess
Every single second not working on
It has got me stressed
When I have the time I'm so
Exhausted and got no rest
And even if I make something in
The moment it's not my best
Fuck it then I'ma quit my
Job but it doesn't last
When I fall behind on bills
Everyone's up my ass
Start to feel like a loser for
Giving up what I had
And if I can't support my son then
I ain't much of a dad
But if I'd never take the risk
Of going through something bad
Then when I'm old I'm gon' regret
I didn't because I can't
Now I'm fully committed and
Everything else is trash
This music has got me trapped, in fact

I think the game is tryna kill me, yeah
The game has got it out for me
I don't know why
It seems like everybody feels me
I can't figure it out
I stay stuck no matter what I try
I gave my whole life to the rhythm
I don't understand what it's gonna take
To make it out it alive
I think the game is tryna kill me, yeah
The game has got it out for me
I don't know why i don't-I don't know why