GrewSum - So Cold lyrics

My soul is cold and I know this
It's my own fault for all of my old choices
I hear voices that tellin' me to live better
But if I switch up now, will it get better?
Cause I feel like I'm stuck in the rut
Blinded by dust, kicked up by what I disrupt
If it's good, I can break it
I know this by now it's like my head is too
Big to notice my crown
Yes, I earned it, you might as well burn it
Cause what I lost to get it
Don't really seem worth it
I know no one that's ever been perfect
But I could been a lot better for certain
This person I'm lookin' in the mirror at
Don't really feel right when he stares back
And there's someting in the air
That made me realize there is
Where my despair is at

(So cold) I feel so frozen by the air
It tears at me as it blows in
The words that I've spoken
In the past that've
Led to a man that is broken

It's not that I'm bad
But I've couldn't been good
It's not that I'm crazy, just misunderstood
I was raised correctly
But the flames kept tempt me
To lean towards the dark and
I changed and then, see
I'm no longer the boy that I once was
All my purity left when I lost love
It left a scar on left of my chest
And my heart is where the
Rest of the pressure started
I feel retarded for disregarding
The problem and allowing it to snowball in
To a bigger thing
Where it couldn't be stopped
I know where I stand
So I shouldn't feel lost
But I definitely do and can't fix it
My head’s right here, but I feel so distant
And this right here is the instance
That everything falls apart for this misfit

(So cold) I feel so frozen by the air
It tears at me as it blows in
The words that I've spoken
In the past that've
Led to a man that is broken

I think my dad is proud
I don't know if my mom is
My music isn't something that she cared for
I know my soul is where the frost is
The chill surrounded me like it's airborn
I made my old man rich to lie
It's too late for me to switch in sides
I'm approaching my sick demise
But I'm little too strong to
Just sit and die
So I hold on with frostbitten skin
As it cracks, it expose what's held within
Memories lost as flakes in a thin
Dead fragments then floats away in the wind
I like to say I tried my best
But I'm bit too mature to lie, I guess
And now I digress
Back to the ice that lives inside my chest

(So cold) I feel so frozen by the air
It tears at me as it blows in
The words that I've spoken
In the past that've
Led to a man that is broken