Guardin - ‌all i ever might be lyrics

"Around that same time, uh, that I
Started like freestyling, like writing more
Uhm, I had just gotten fired the
Only other job
That I worked apart from music
I was a janitor at a hospital" "Stop"
"Deadass Ha ha haha" "Oh my god"
"yeah, so I worked over nights, uh, it
Was like 12 'til 4 AM
Just like four-hour shifts''

I don't think I've
Ever been this fucking stressed in my life
​​creature pt 2 isn't finished, I lied
Just to get them off my back though, I tried
I can't create when I'm dying inside
Moving this weekend, I wish I could fly
Don't have my car, but I still gotta drive
Pack up the U-Haul and tell my mom, "Bye"
Hop on I86 thinkin' 'bout why
Am I like this? I don't like this
All my friends are enemies behind my eyelids
Losing sleep
I drive all week and raise my mileage
​guardin cut his fucking hair
Now I don't like him
Depression take me by 25
Fuck going out, I'll just stay inside
"This isn't you" I say to myself
Every night lately, I contemplate suicide
"Oh but you're famous online so
Your life must be great"
They say, but that's a fucking lie
Crawl into bed around 7 AM
And the headaches come full force
I wanna die

Oh, oh, oh (Da da da da, da)
Oh, oh, oh (Da da da da, da)

Hey Hollywood
Would your people ever like me?
Misunderstood is all I ever might be
Hey Hollywood
Would your people ever like me?
Misunderstood is all I ever might be
Hey Hollywood
Would your people ever like me?
Misunderstood is all I ever might be