Guardin - ditch lyrics
guardin [Nicholas Jordan Kerr-Carpenter]
[Guardin - ditch lyrics]
Fuck my life, fuck my health
You don't care, so I'll go fuck myself
Fuck this job, fuck this car
Every song that I write just
Co-exists with a scar
And I've got paragraphs about the shit
That I will never say
'Cause it'll kill you just to hear me
Whine and bitch all fuckin' day
Maybe the grass is green in other
States where I choose to reside
Maybe a glimpse of light will formulate
And catch my fuckin' eye
(Catch my fucking eye)
And maybe you'll hear this when you check
My page and ask if I'm alright
'Cause I've been afraid of all the
Darkest places lying in my mind
I will convince myself I'm dying but
Then act like I'm just fine
(Act like I'm just fine)
My mind's a scary fuckin' place and I
Can't fix it while I drive
(Fix it while I drive)
But my car is Lucy in the sky with diamonds
Going 65 and you're just a pothole
Maybe Yoko Ono screaming by my side
Is this the end of things?
I'm strumming strings just trying to decide
'Cause I am afraid of me, so save me please
I beg you just to try
I'm losing my purpose, life's a circus
They said "Please enjoy the ride"
My seatbelt is broken
Eyes wide open as my body starts to slide
If I escape the wreck
I'll disconnect from everyone online
(Everyone online) i'll pack my belongings
I've been longing for this
Moment my whole life (Moment my whole life)
I'll disappear for months
No mentions of my status or a clue
I'm fine, don't you worry
There's no hurry to return to what I knew
It's hard to calculate these conversations
If I'm being truthful
I wanna congregate all that relate
To everything I spew
In midst of my disconnect
I'll stay in check
And keep in touch with few
As long as I'm open
I'm just hoping that it's
Something I'll get through
'Cause I'm a fucking wreck
Oh, what the heck? Why do I even try?
I lie in the grass, high off my ass
And watch the clouds just pass on by
If life has a purpose, I am nervous
To unravel what is mine
I'll trip and I'll travel
Down the rabbit hole
And ditch my bags inside
You don't care, so I'll go fuck myself
Fuck this job, fuck this car
Every song that I write just
Co-exists with a scar
And I've got paragraphs about the shit
That I will never say
'Cause it'll kill you just to hear me
Whine and bitch all fuckin' day
Maybe the grass is green in other
States where I choose to reside
Maybe a glimpse of light will formulate
And catch my fuckin' eye
(Catch my fucking eye)
And maybe you'll hear this when you check
My page and ask if I'm alright
'Cause I've been afraid of all the
Darkest places lying in my mind
I will convince myself I'm dying but
Then act like I'm just fine
(Act like I'm just fine)
My mind's a scary fuckin' place and I
Can't fix it while I drive
(Fix it while I drive)
But my car is Lucy in the sky with diamonds
Going 65 and you're just a pothole
Maybe Yoko Ono screaming by my side
Is this the end of things?
I'm strumming strings just trying to decide
'Cause I am afraid of me, so save me please
I beg you just to try
I'm losing my purpose, life's a circus
They said "Please enjoy the ride"
My seatbelt is broken
Eyes wide open as my body starts to slide
If I escape the wreck
I'll disconnect from everyone online
(Everyone online) i'll pack my belongings
I've been longing for this
Moment my whole life (Moment my whole life)
I'll disappear for months
No mentions of my status or a clue
I'm fine, don't you worry
There's no hurry to return to what I knew
It's hard to calculate these conversations
If I'm being truthful
I wanna congregate all that relate
To everything I spew
In midst of my disconnect
I'll stay in check
And keep in touch with few
As long as I'm open
I'm just hoping that it's
Something I'll get through
'Cause I'm a fucking wreck
Oh, what the heck? Why do I even try?
I lie in the grass, high off my ass
And watch the clouds just pass on by
If life has a purpose, I am nervous
To unravel what is mine
I'll trip and I'll travel
Down the rabbit hole
And ditch my bags inside