Guardin - doormat lyrics

Yeah, my time is over
I don't wanna be sober i'ma make it
Hope you waitin' on this stoner
'Cause they ain't ready for
What's droppin' in October
Yeah, my time is over
I don't wanna be sober
I'm so lonely, all I wanna do is hold her
Fuck the distance, reminisce about you closer
Yeah, my time is over yeah, my time is over

Have you ever had a thought that
Just eats away your brain?
And if you decide to kill it
Then you'll probably go insane?
Writing letters to yourself in hopes
That it'll stop the pain
But you're livid and it's vivid when
You've got nothing to gain
Bipolarity, hilarity, I'm laughing at myself
Honestly, I probably shouldn't
Though 'cause i just need some help
Rollin' sticky 'cause I'm sick of
Everything inside my cells
Find importance in the portions of
The shit I'm tryna sell
And you know, you know that
I've been trying fucking hard to discard the
Feelings that I always throw back
And I know, I know that
Lovin' me ain't easy, sweetie
I'm as useful as a doormat
Format my brain and program me to stop
'Cause I've been so lost inside
All of my crop
The rain is just falling on top of my shop
A tear in my ceiling, I hope it don't drop

Caving in, I'm caving in
I do this time and time again
I'm faded now, was faded then
I'll talk to you somewhere 'round 10
And then you're gone and I'm alone
I pack my bong and fucking zone
There's nowhere I can call my home
There's no one I can call my own
At least I tell myself that
At least I tell myself that
At least I tell myself that
At least I tell myself that