Guardin - FOREVER lyrics

(Forever)
I find it hard to find myself in the mist
Fighting off these fucking demons with
A blunt on my fist peroxide is the queen
Alcohol is the prince
Yours truly is a peasant giving
My wounds a rinse

No fucking bandages can fix
This lonely stoner
I'm a pilot in a world full
Of lives without an owner
Tryna find an empty vessel
Maybe I could be a donor
But for now turn around my life
Sitting gracefully and waiting your arrival
I'm kidding, I'm fucking anxious
In desperate need of revival
I'm sorry that I'm so broken
You make me less suicidal
A panic switch in the distance but yet
You remain idle, I love you
More than I probably should
I mean my heart is heavy for you
Heavier than the wood
Holding everything together right above
Where we stood but now I never mind
Don't tell me that you're up to no good
Even though you're probably sittin' there
And studying for your classes
I'm thinking 'bout all the dudes
You'll probably be fucking smashin'
I'm laughing
'Cause every problem solely exist
In my atlas my vision was 20
20 but now I think I need glasses
This blurry life's got me caught up in a net
Sun shining on me but my state
Of mind is not connect
I just wanna free myself from
These thoughts full of regret
Can you please bring my walls down
So I can just reset? Fuck

(Forever)

Listening to you talk is my forte
The way you structure your sentences
Is just so gourmet
And when I see the way you
Walk in through that doorway
I'm picturing my head between your
Legs on some foreplay
I'm kissing blunts not kissing
Sluts, don't worry, boo
The last thing I wanna do
Is make you worry too 'Cause honestly
That will probably be the death of you
Surviving on my own is impossible
You ain't got a clue
And when I step up in the ride
I find my mind contemplate suicide
I try to hide this side
'Cause I know you don't wanna abide
To these dark thoughts that I confine
But I'm alive
'Cause someone told me I'm more
Than what meets the eye
She's the fallin' cherry blossoms in
My cotton candy sky
A bullet can leave a rifle
Ending everything that I
Have stumbled over to get here, I'm
Simply more than a guy, i

I'm high got me feelin' so high
My lil' mango and I
Forever goes through my mind