Guardin - ‌i don’t wanna feel like this lyrics

I think I'm crazy

This ain't really what I
Wanna talk about today
But I've been quiet as a mouse
I've been countin' my days
There's a leak up on my
Ceiling that I fuckin' hate (Fuckin' hate)
No baby steps, inebriated on my darkest day
Is heaven real? 'Cause I'm lookin'
For a brighter place if God can hear me
Will he hit me with another chase?
I'm throwin' up inside a
Broken Coca-Cola vase (Coca-Cola vase)
These livestreams, behind scenes
I think I need my space
I feel that pressure
Impressions are everything, and I
Know I'ma make it
Awaken from every dream with the
Thought of you baby, your name
Is all that I sing, rainy
Days got me dismal, dismissing that
Fuckin' ringin' in my head, yeah
That fuckin' ringin' in my
Head, yeah, yeah, yeah
And I wanna miss that bus so I
Can step in front of it
I'm so pissed about my thoughts and
Try my best to smother it
Fall asleep inside my car
While the engine run n' shit
I just wanna crawl far away
From where the monsters live

(I think I'm sick) where the monsters live
(I hope it's not contagious)
I don't wanna feel like this