Guardin, hamilton - nevermind lyrics
guardin [Nicholas Jordan Kerr-Carpenter]
[Guardin, hamilton - nevermind lyrics]
Used to be bright, now it's dark
Didn't have any cracks at the start
Now I turn all my pain into art
All my pain into-
Cracks in my heart
Cracking and tearing apart
The feelin of warmth in your arms
3 AM dreamin' of stars
They doubt I'll go far
They hate but they fake who they are
They think they hard
They think they this and they that
They pull up, I know it's an act
Why they all talkin' like that?
I think it's wack
Some nights I still want her back
Some nights I toss and I turn
Dreamin' of her
Wake up in the morning I'm hurt
Fuck what they saying, fuck what they heard
They can all go and eat dirt
Making me question my worth
Why am I here on this earth?
Am I just wasting my time?
Should I just quit with the rhymes? Say
Fuck it and leave it behind wait, nevermind
Wait, nevermind kill me to leave it behind
Think of you all of the time
Can't get you out of my mind
Look in your eyes and I die every time
I'm losing the battle inside
Sit in the corner and cry
Still feel the pain from your lies
So I'ma smoke 'till I'm high
Blowin' out dope 'till I die
Fuck today and fuck tomorrow
I'm just living in this perpetual sorrow
Rainy days inside my brain are all I know
I can never let it go
Fuck it up just like a pro
Propaganda panorama all these people
I don't trust
Got my eyes inside the pinnacle
The cynical's disgust on the surface
I'ma surpass swallowing up all the dust
But beneath the flesh
I'm focused and I'm prayin'
I don't combust
Hypothetically a nuisance with the
Noose inside my clutch
I've been standin' on the edge so long
Afraid of givin' up
Feelin' useless as the clues I'm
Swallowin' inside my cup
Trippin' over all these corners
Short of breath I'm throwin' up
Yeah, I've been tryin' my best
Wakin' up like every mornin' with
A gun to my chest
I'm growin' tired, I ain't
Gettin' any rest, yeah
I guess I'm, just stressed