Guardin - shadow lyrics
guardin [Nicholas Jordan Kerr-Carpenter]
[Guardin - shadow lyrics]
Caught a glimpse of it through shifted eyes
I see them lookin' at me
From right outside of my window
I see the monsters that creep
They lurk when I'm sparkin' my indo
Hold in the smoke 'til I choke
I won't breathe 'til they exit my airways
Copin' by hopin' tomorrow is better
I dwell in the stairway
Fuck it, I just wanna drive
I love the feeling of feeling alive
Do you ever contemplate suicide?
Falling asleep on his shoulder while I
Cry in my pillow alone in my bed
Smother the sound of the voice in my head
Losin' my voice so I speak with a pen
Writing agendas so I can pay rent
This is my life
This is not shit you can cut with a knife
No tension here but the stress is as thick
As the buds I've been breakin'
And smokin' all night
Why do I write all about me?
Why can't you see all the things that I see?
Am I alive? Is my brain
Just pullin' tricks on me?
Get out alive or just live in a dream
Sorry, I suck
I'm full of shit, I do not give a fuck
I got disorders and folders inside of me
Tucked undiagnosed but I know I am fucked
Up in my head
Writing about it again and again
It's gettin' harder to write
Songs about flowers
When showers are cold and
My phone's always dead
(Phone's always dead)
I think that I'm fine when I'm alone in my
Bed with my bong packed tight
My throat's been sore all night
Sip that water quick
Before you might get sick
Tacks and thorns will prick
My words will never stick
(Calling) oh, my words will never stick
(For the last time)
Oh, my words will never stick
(Caught a glimpse of it)
My words will never stick
(Through shifted eyes)