Guardin - Window lyrics

(Taylor 'bout to fucking flex)
6: 00 am, stagnant as ever
I'm severing my brain
Tryna understand this weather
The snow plow comes and
Goes but I'm certain, however
The nightmares ain't gettin' much better
It's a fucked up world when
Your mind's got you subdued
To finger foods and skewed views in altitudes
Higher than you were last
Night when you alluded
To the problem but you
Know it's gonna obtrude
I'm choking on these bad
Thoughts in my trachea
Shaking in the middle of the night
Afraid of waking ya it's not safe
At least my mind's tryna save me
Yeah, I thought that for a while
But it's demons in my aisle i suppose
Just give it time, baby, let my mind unfold


Never certain of the problem, in fact
I'm insecure as all hell
Got me pacing it back
Facin' blunts, never fears
Too afraid to react
'Cause time is precious and I ain't
Tryna waste all of that, ha
My aura dances like auroras out in Kansas
Spillin' my colors out on to a canvas
A reincarnation of Sam Francis
Clashing with Clyfford Still
I'm swallowing all these pills
My mind is making me ill but still
I pick it up again
You pray for me and shout "Amen"
I'm wishin' that he shot him then
And stained his fuckin' cardigan
'Cause life is fucking hard again
I'm swimmin' way too deep
Where your history is buried and
The people never sleep
Never speak a fucking word so
You feelin' like an outcast
Outlast, go home, listen to some Outkast
Three-thousand reasons to live
So now there's contrast
Layin' out your demons
Lookin' at 'em through an eyeglass
They're minuscule if you really
Think about it i mean
Patience is much needed when you're
Weighing out your options
Suicide on my mind but ain't
No bullet gonna stop it
Rid it all with energy and pack
This piece up with the chronic
I'll be chillin' the astral zone
The mic be on embedded in my psyche, gone
I'm just passing all this time
So my night's prolonged
I don't sleep on mother fuckers, yeah
I just yawn said "I don't sleep on
Mother fuckers, yeah, i just yawn" ha
Yeah, yeah, yeah