​heylog - ​goodbye​heylog lyrics

Almost 5am, I find it harder to sleep
I crack the window and I
Hear every animal sing
With a wind blowing soft
Rustling through the leaves
Admire nature as it comes alive
From winter to spring
The flowers grow so tall that
They start to bloom
And I just took a couple out
'cause I picked them for you
Hoping one day you'll travel here
To see what's new
'Cause this bouquet is gonna die if
You don't visit me soon

And I have a difficult time spending
Days when you're on my mind
Wish this would just go away
'cause I'm trying to push you away
Why do I feel lonely? Knowing I hurt to see
An outcast, no one wants to be and giggled
At and always being teased

Can someone give a valid reason
On why I shouldn't die?
In disbelief that I will never
See a point in life
I'm on and off of feeling bad
And for a second I'm fine
It's so messed up and I don't
Think that I will ever resign
I'm so bipolar and I don't want
You to see me like this
'Cause I guarantee I'll scare you if
I speak from my chest
I didn't mean for you to leave when
You saw that on my wrist
And I'm so sorry for putting
You through all of this

So why do you keep playing with me?
Is it cause you get lonely?
In the night and think of us
Well it's fine, 'cause I think of us too
Why do I feel like this? Well never mind
'cause you don't care about this
And if I die, will you grieve?
And will you cry? And will you miss me?

Can someone give a valid reason
On why I shouldn't die?
'Cause you make me wanna kill myself
Or go grab the knife
I'm at the age where I can
Never see a point in life
In disbelief of everything that I'm
Just wasting my time
I'm so bipolar and I don't want
You to see me like this
Cause I guarantee I'll scare you if
I speak from my chest
I'm at the bottom of the ocean
With all of my regrets
There's many things I wish were gone
Or wish I could reset

I step into the light and
Did this without a group
And so you noticing me now when
I'm steady on the move
And you just think it's all okay to
Hit me up out of the blue
I'm not your friend or type
Of benefit to satisfy you
So please give a valid reason
That you want me dead
Is it safe to even know that
This just might be a test?
For you to trick me into thinking
I'm nothing but a mess
Delete your image that I longed
For and not seen again

If I can't love will I
End up alone and forgot?
Or spend it with someone
I can't fall in love
My hearts dead, probably numb
I miss you my dear
It feels like it's been years

No way home, I was never close
The path ends here, don't know where to go
Stone cold lies, I knew I was right
So farewell, 'cause this is goodbye