​heylog - ​next to u lyrics

There is much I wonder about
A great many things (heylog)
I understand that do you?

You make it so hard to live
I feel like I'm in hell
My parents ain't raise no kid who'll
Just end up killing himself
I could shut down and no
One will ever find me
I could lie down and see you there next to me

I need you to focus i'm crying, I'm broken
But no one really cares how
I'm feeling so hopeless
I hate your guts, and I hate your friends
I realized you all suck
So I'll just cut you instead
Now I think of you less
'cause I thought highly of you
So I distanced away to try something new
I'm steady being myself
Something you'd never do
But I still wish you the best
Even though I still hate you

You texted me, I'm not sure what to say
I'll respond in a week, maybe two
Maybe three avoiding us and move on
Though I still write you in songs
It's the emotions you hold
That never feels wrong

God I'm so disappointed at
Everything that I do i'll play some guitar
Record a couple of loops
But it ain't met with my standards
So I start something new
At least I put in some work
Which you'll never do
Taking pics of the wall
Add a plant and a book
Write a verse and a bridge
'cause I ain't good with no hook
I keep repeating myself
Am I speaking too much?
I'm not a person who talks
So I'll just chill in the back and watch